So today was a very eventful day, in some ways very great, but in just as many ways a bit crappy. A lot of friends on here know that I have struggled plenty with my gender identity, and that I have identified as gender fluid for years now. I don’t fully know how else to word it other than just being blunt and straight forward so I guess that’s the route I’m taking with this blog.
For the last few years after many long nights of questioning, discomfort, and overall inner disapproval I have come to terms with the fact that I no longer identity as & see myself as gender fluid. I am transgender, and have always been a woman trapped inside of a body that wasn’t meant for me. Up until today I have been keeping it to myself and suppressing my thoughts, feelings and emotions which has been dreadful. I am no longer happy doing so. This morning I “came out” to both my mother and father, along with my boyfriend. Unfortunately my mother was… unhappy to say the least. However the support I received from my father and boyfriend today has been absolutely incredible.
My boyfriend and I had a long conversation for a few hours, and it was nothing but positive. He continued throughout the entire conversation to make sure I knew he loved me for ME, not my gender identity, and tonight took me out on a date to celebrate me no longer hiding who I am and beginning to embrace it and I literally sobbed probably 1/2 of the day, both happy and sad tears.
Regarding my fathers response, growing up he said he could always tell something was a bit… off in a sense, not in a bad way of course but he could always tell I wasn’t comfortable with who I was. He assured me today that he could not be prouder of me and the woman I have become and continue becoming, and I have never been more grateful and happy.
There was obviously a lot more to the conversations today but that’s just a brief summary and honestly a way for me to just open up on here because for the most part I have seen nothing but love and support towards myself and others when talking about gender identity, and overall all conversation relating to the LGBTQ+ community. I just felt this was a safe space that I shouldn’t fear not being accepted on, so thank you all for that!
Overall just making this blog because I am very proud of myself for finally being able to open up, and live my truth. Thanks to anyone who like actually read all that cause I can already tell that this is long as hell! Thank you to everyone who’s been there for me always when I have opened up to them previously, and thank you to everyone who reads all this and continues to love and support me as a person moving forward :)
HUGE thank you to these five people that have honestly been my biggest support system, I love you all so much!
Omg I teared up reading this, I am so happy and proud of you, hearing your dad's response is so good, everyone needs that kind of support in their lives, and your boyfriend sounds amazing too. We love and support you, thank you for sharing.
You should remember that there are plenty of people here who will always support you! I know we don’t talk a lot but this blog really made me smile! I’m so happy for you :)
Love you so much. The courage you have to stick for yourself and say how you feel is very impressive. Not a lot people can do that. I’m so proud of you bestie. You deserve the best and I’m so happy that your dad and bf support you all the way. When it comes to your mom, give her time to process it. She will definitely comes around. Mom will never hate her child. Live life to the fullest ❤️ ❤️ ❤️
Love you girl SO MUCH, I could never imagine wrestling with all of this but it’s so beautiful and amazing to see you discover yourself and stand firm in it ❤️❤️ Lol sorry if this didn’t make sense , I had a long day but I love you and had to come celebrate with ya!
