I did not know Bryan was a minor. I鈥檝e already admitted that I was wrong, stupid and an idiot for not asking what his age and just assuming he was of age, what more do you want? Treating me like I鈥檓 some disgusting pedophile who actively seeks out minors and is attracted to young people isn鈥檛 right, either. You don鈥檛 beat wrong by doing wrong. Also, the purpose of the blog was not to defend my actions. If you read it, I clearly say where and how I fucked up. I simply was defending myself against the claim that I consciously and actively go after children because I do not. That鈥檚 all.
It鈥檚 hard to take some of you seriously when it seems like you鈥檙e just thriving off of the drama and trying to control the narrative.
You鈥檙e welcome for the drama. Enjoy it whilst it鈥檚 hot 鈾ワ笍馃憫 to the trolls of tengaged, I did not actively seek out a minor. I thought he was legal and that was my bad. I owned up to that and apologised, but if y鈥檃ll want to run with other narratives I鈥檓 just going to sit back and show you it doesn鈥檛 affect me the way you want it to. Sorry 馃グ
This is a cheap stunt. But you know me, I love a scandal as do the people of tengaged, so I shall respond. However, anyone with a fraction of a brain can tell how convenient the timing is for a blog like this (after I called you out yesterday) and I wouldn't even respond had not one word in this particular instance bothered me so much - 'pedophile'. The story Bryan is presenting is incredibly misleading and defamatory, but I did fuck up and will own up to what I did wrong WHILST clearing my name in response to his false allegations.
Some context: Anyone who knows me, knows I have a very scatty, impulsive, NSFW personality. In my everyday life, this isn't a problem. Online? I've come to learn that it is. Well, not online in general, just Tengaged. I'm not used to being in an environment with teenagers and young adults around (sad news for those of you who prefer the story of me praying on minors) and I can admit that I have acted very irresponsibly during my time here. It's part of why I took my 1-2 month break, to get a grip and revaluate. All of you know (because I probably hit on you lmao) that I went through a phase where I was overly sexual, flirting with everyone and everything that would give me attention and sending NSFW pictures, which is where the situation with Eilish comes into play.
Firstly, I want to make one thing VERY clear. I was NOT aware that Bryan was seventeen years of age, and THAT'S what I want to take accountability for, but not in the way this story is being portrayed. But before I expand on that it's important I make something else clear, which is that these pictures WERE NOT unsolicited. Have I sent unsolicited stuff in the past to people? Yes, which I have apologised for, and will never do again. But Bryan happily engaged in flirtatious convo and even ASKED me for nudes (messages in Skype that have conveniently been deleted to make this revenge story work, which is painfully obvious. All you have to do is look at the screenshots to know pretty much everything on his side has been deleted *edit* there was more screenshots including my nudes that he has now also conveniently deleted from his blog post lmao) and was more than comfortable with the tone of the conversation. Unfortunately, I delivered, but eventually I stopped responding because he came across as one of those pesty Grindr picture/video collectors.
This was during a time when my self esteem was at an all time low, I was super horny and welcomed any and all attention. I never asked or even seeked anything in return from Bryan, because the gratification came from me sending stuff to others (who I wrongfully assumed were of age) and thank fuck he didn't send anything in return, because this situation would of been a lot worse. However, I'd like to acknowledge that me sending anything was still just as bad. Not just because hoe-ing yourself around like I was is unclassy and tactless (which it is), but because I did not verify with Bryan his age beforehand, and I should of. It was wrong of me to assume that just because he was engaging in explicit conversation with me, that he was legally of age and I want to hit myself on the head with a statue for it. It was flat out irresponsible.
I've never seen a picture of Bryan and having only been on this site for a couple of months, I don't know everyone's age. Bryan didn't disclose his age to me, but it's still my fault because I didn't ask and because I AM an adult, the responsible thing to do is ask and not assume, but again this is unfamiliar territory for me and I made a mistake. Was it stupid and foolish of me to not check? Yes it was, and those are the adjectives I will happily allow people to hurl at me, but not pedophile. That's dangerous, life destroying rhetoric and I don't identify with it WHATSOEVER. I have and will learn from this isolated incident.
At the end of the day, I'm just a messy individual who needs to be conscious of their environment, think before they act and be more responsible on a website full of teenagers. I apologise for that, and it won't happen again. Since returning, I'd like to think I've done a much better job of advocating myself. I'm good friends with underage people on this site (Yawnha for example who I'm very protective of), and I want to lead by example.
Bryan, I apologize I didn't check with you your age before hand, but it's hard to see you as a victim when what you actually are is a liar. You've manipulated the situation, LIED/deleted a ton of your messages and saved these 'receipts' for a rainy day so you can attempt to label someone a pedophile whenever said person decides to cross you. It's calculating and manipulative. Mine was an innocent, foolish mistake. Your intentions behind your blog aren't.
ANYWAY, I AM SORRY TENGAGED, AND I WILL DO BETTER IN THE FUTURE. <3
I'M ALSO SORRY IF YOU SAW MY ASSHOLE BEFORE HE DELETED IT AND WISH YOUR EYES A HAPPY AND HEALTHY RECOVERY.
~ To summarise in case you can't be bothered to read ~
- I didn't know Bryan was seventeen.
- It was stupid and irresponsible of me to assume he was of age by engaging in explicit conversation with me. Teenagers get horny too, and in the future I will always make sure I know the age of the person I'm speaking with.
- Consent was involved. Bryan asked and encouraged me. None of this was unsolicited like he claims. (his side of the conversation was totally erased, as seen in the printscreens)
- This is a revenge story, period.
- Labelling someone a pedophile is serious business and needs to stop.
- The only thing that's been exposed is my ass. Rip.
- He deleted other screenshots (including exposing my asshole to the whole of tengaged) from his blog post because it's obvious he edited out his entire side of the convo and got called out for it.
... Oh, I'm also not a pedophile. Just an idiot. :)
Also this is not the first time I鈥檝e tried to apologise for my hoe behaviour. It鈥檚 in the past and I鈥檒l apologise now AGAIN in light of the blogs page, but this is the last time. I鈥檓 done with stuff that happened in 2020 and am moving on.
https://tengaged.com/blog/ilysuiteheart/9331028/finally-ended-dry-spell
Bryan, this isn鈥檛 the first time you鈥檝e tried to cancel someone over a shop related incident.
also to my mail in voters whose anonymity I will respect, but know that I acknowledge and appreciate you!! much love everyone. tysm for the support 馃槍馃挏
