Hey Tengaged! I wasn't expecting a return to the Stars house so soon but the raffle had other ideas! I thought I'd share some stuff about me since I am making more & more friends here and I thought you might want to get to know me better! I am close to turning 22 so I'll share 22 things ;) Some things are fun/light, others more serious.
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1: This is my second time winning the raffle! I just won it like 8 weeks ago so I'm #shook but let's roll!
2: I'm going for a public shop! There's a definite lack of affordable designs for most of TG so I am aiming to open a shop with affordable prices! #QueenofthePeople
3: I am a polyglot! My native language is English but I thoroughly enjoy learning other languages and about other cultures & their history. My major is French studies and I've also significantly studied Portuguese, Italian, & Spanish, as well as having studied some Catalan, German, and Swedish.
4: My name, Noelle, is the French word for Christmas! The name is traditionally given only on December 24th, 25th, and 26th. My birthday is the 26th <3 Although it was not traditionally given...
5: I chose it! It is actually not the first time I've changed my name, either. Tea! I am transgender and I started transitioning about 6 years ago. I changed my name rather immediately and Noelle was the name I chose to be my middle name. Over the years I slowly regretted that decision more and more until I changed my first name to Noelle last November!
6: I LOVE CHRISTMAS! If my name wasn't an indication enough, I just wanted to put this out there <3 Christmas is the most wonderful time of the year baby! The movies, the music, the mood in the air...chefs kiss.
7: I might have been born the day after Christmas, but I have a Christmas baby sister! (and a New Year's baby cousin.) I actually have NINE SIBLINGS!
8: Sadly, I didn't get to grow up with any of them and there is one that I've never even met. They are all technically half siblings but I don't like that term - if a parent is shared, you're siblings periodt! There are only 3 I have the fortune to visit somewhat regularly.
9: Did someone say fortune? Yeah, I don't have one of those LOL. I actually had some issues with spending once I got out on my own and it kinda seemed like I was finally out of poverty - we love the financial aid illusion. Well, that few thousand was gonna be hard to catch up on...and then I went and got a facial feminization surgery! So..guess who officially declared bankruptcy back in the spring? LOL ME :(
10: I am doing much better though <3 I've learned from those mistakes. I even have my own car now (paid off!) and my own apartment :)
11: Although it was not a great situation that lead me to getting this apartment. I was living with my mother and she is severely mentally ill. She ended up kicking me out because she felt like I wasn't appreciative enough and was mad I opened my window to cool down sometimes. She randomly said I had 3 minutes to leave or she was gonna go destroy my car <3 #justcrazytingz
12: Did someone say CRAZY TINGS? While I don't seriously use the word crazy to refer to mental illness unless it's about me or my mom (lol), sometimes I myself get a little "crazy". I have good ole depression & anxiety but I also struggle with Complex PTSD and Borderline Personality Disorder. So my mood can change very rapidly and sometimes I am unable to control myself. Not that that's an excuse, but you know, if I've ever said anything excessively harsh to you, that was probably why.
13: I LOVE MAKING NEW FRIENDS AND MAKING UP WITH PEOPLE! If I've ever upset you or you've ever upset me/thought you upset me, please just reach out to me :) I'm very understanding both of my own mistakes, which I will own, and the mistakes of others. We all make them!
14: I'm Catholic! I actually grew up areligious and came into Catholicism on my own. Many Christians horridly misrepresent Christianity and mistreat people who are LGBT so I grew up with a cold attitude towards it, however that changed when I realized religion should be something personal and judgey people just use it as a cover!
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15: I didn't get to grow up with any of my siblings because when I was very young like 3 or 4 I don't exactly know, my brother fell down the stairs and cracked his head open. So there were 4 of us living together but the state separated us :( I only saw my brother that injured his head once afterwards but at this point it was like 14 years ago or something ridiculous :/ his dad doesn't want him interacting with anyone else related to our mom.
16: The other 2 I lived with now live with their grandparents who don't let them see me because they're transphobic :/ I'm hoping when they're older I'll get to see them again and maybe we can have some semblance of normal sibling relationships
17: When I was in foster care (I didn't have anywhere to go when the state separated us), one of the teenage boys there would psychologically mess with me and physically abuse me. I ended up getting taken out of the foster home because he tried to choke me to death.
18: I ended up bouncing around between 3 different family member households after that cuz none of them really wanted me. I ended up at my grandparents from kindergarten - 8th grade. They were so emotionally and sometimes physically abusive that I was extremely suicidal and I stopped living with them after police intervention in the situation.
19: I went to live with my mom and since then our relationship has been very up and down. She's not a stable person clearly and we've both ended up homeless multiple times either together or individually.
20: I finally got some stability when I got an apartment my second year in college. Things were finally looking up but then I was sexually assaulted the day after my 20th birthday.
21: There's even more stuff but I am a SURVIVOR! I'm still here and I'm constantly working on my mental health. I'm looking towards the future and seeking happiness and peace in my life. Sometimes I have setbacks whether that be uncontrollable factors or my own behavior, but I'm working through all that. Things can get better. So if you're someone who struggles with anything too - it gets better! It may be in small steps but enough small steps will lead to a better place in life.
22: Let's wrap up on a more positive ending! I love nature & animals <3 I love all sorts of animals and I find nature can be breathtaking, especially mountains & the beach. Beauty can be found everywhere! I've found it in the lakes here in Minnesota, the Niagara Falls, the beaches in the Carolinas, the mountains in Colorado, and even the swamps down in Louisiana. This world is giant and there is so much to appreciate. I hope to visit more places of both natural and cultural beauty throughout my life. Never stop learning and searching for the beauty in life!
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didnt read it all but this seems cute, lovely lass u have me support
This was a good read and it can鈥檛 have been easy to be so open about such personal matters, well done for being so strong after what seems like a very tough life! Good luck in stars :)
