And another unsolicited blog or tag toward me from my stalker vicey. I know I am hot. Leave me alone, and get a new hobby. This freak has tagged me on a blog comment or wrote a blog toward me at least 1 time per week about tencaged back on January 22. I'm scared for my life that this white, stoner is going to show up and force me to eat edibles
And another unsolicited blog or tag toward me from my stalker beastboy. I know I am hot and I know you want these nuts down your throat, but I am straight bro. Leave me alone, and get a new hobby. This freak has tagged me on a blog comment or wrote a blog toward me at least 1 time per week since a Hunger Games back on January 22. I'm scared for my life that this white, military man is going to show up and murder me or something
I think I’ve finally reached my all time low.
my personality has been poisoned by a narcissist
Abused, raped, I have become this person I once hated in others,
When I’m in a room full of people I’m alone.
I know I have someone who truely wants to best for me
But to dump my feelings on someone isn’t okay.
Pay for a therapist why? So I sit and lie and validate the only thing my brain has been programmed to understand.
I feel alone. Stuck in a world that doesn’t need me but I could never leave on my own will. No I’m a pussy.
What have I done with my life ? A lot but that’s invalidated because I’m not where I wanted to be at the age of 16. To me thats defeat. Failure.
to eat more than what you burn off in a day. A failure.
But I feel everything stopping me from lifting weights, from exercise.
to feel like I’m just a space in this world full of opportunity to see a glass empty instead of full, I wish I could.
Be to opptimistic on the outside but to be sad on the inside.
Feeling like a burden or that no one cares if I say im sad. So I just say I’m okay.
To feel like everyone around you is fake just to put up with you. That’s real.
Shall I bottle up my feelings with liquor just to force myself to throw it up? Idk.
To smoke a cigarette to give me life ending cancer. No.
To give my life to substance to hallucinate to feel ok. No.
To simply exist in a world where in the end nothing matters. Yes.
To sit here and fight the little stomach fat I have due to gay hookup culture and realize no one will accept me.
To be embarassed by this post. Yes. just ignore this.
To sit here and have a platform to just rant. helps maybe a percent.
I’m okay.
I just wanted to take a moment and thank my cast mates and my friends for supporting me nonstop, I wouldn’t be in this spot without you tengaged 🩵 your support means EVERYTHING TO ME. And for the 13yo me that wanted to win stars, I did bud. I did it.
This game was so mentally and emotionally draining. Rollercoasters of emotions, I had geniuene good conversations with a lot of these people regardless of voting the same. I’m thankful for how this turned out. I made a lot of friends, made an enemy, revived an old friendship dripteejay 🩶. I played with my heart and it lead me to this spot. Being your stars winner ! Thank you all 🩵🧡 again thank you tengaged for your support this week.
