Hello, my name is
22
Bisexual
Single 馃
Stars history
Poll record 6-2
1/1 final three poll
https://tengaged.com/poll/bigbrother-game-222827
https://tengaged.com/poll/bigbrother-game-224207
https://tengaged.com/poll/bigbrother-game-225114
Won stars 784 馃┑
Hunger wins
https://tengaged.com/game/225881
Highest rank 345
Broke top 700 7/5/23
Broke top 600 7/23/23
Broke top 500 10/27/23
Broke top 400 1/23/24
joined - 5/31/18
馃惢鈥嶁潉white level -5/31/18
鈿狅笍yellow level -6/13/18
馃崐orange level -7/13/18
馃殾light green level - 8/5/18
馃崗dark green level - 9/4/18
馃悑Blue level - 12/11/18
馃敭Purple level - 1/3/19
馃毃Red level - 1/29/19
馃崅Brown level - 3/15/19
took a break - 4/1/19 - 1/25/20
鈾燂笍black level 4-4-20
Break 4-4-20 - 5-7-23
馃silver level 5/13/23
馃専 gold level 6/27/23
馃寖 sky level 7/15/23
馃└blood level 8/8/23
馃摵 猸愶笍 level 10/5/23
馃Ω猸愶笍 level 02/04/24
</3 sometimes death is the only option.
Will i be missed ? No
Will anyone care ? No
My body will become one with the ground as it decays into the Mother Nature.
How long will this crying alone in my room be artsy?
Because eventually, I'll drown in my tears
And my friends will get tired of the same words spoken by my lying tongue
And I'll be left behind
How long until all of this gets old, and I'm actually ready to die
And not just saying it to waste the time
Why am I not better yet?
It's been so many years, so many tears
And I'm forgetting how to sleep
And I'm forgetting how to eat
Don't post positive quotes
That doesn't help me
I'm severely ill and you're not helping
My mind is twisted and you're not helping
My body is bleeding and you're not helping
Because this illness isn't cute
It's not for writing beautiful poetry
It's not for singing pretty chords
It's not for you to be there for me
It's not for me to be understood
This isn't helping
None of this is helping
None of this is helping
Why am I not better yet?
It's been so many years, so many tears
And I'm forgetting how to sleep
And I'm forgetting how to eat
Why am I not better yet?
Why am I not better yet?
Because the clock is ticking fast, and I know that I'll be gone soon
But it's hard to look forward to tomorrow when all of the days are the same
Maybe if I take cold showers, it'll help my brain
If I go on walks, meditate, I should feel relief
But nothing helps
I'll wake up, a world of gray, lost, ambitionless
Empty, wandering, hopeless
Another day, losing sleep, losing focus
Losing friends, is this the end?
Why am I not better yet?
Quotes from thirteen
We will abduct Wyatt2001 and we cannot promise whether or not he will be seen on Earth again. If we choose to return him, we will erase his memory so he will recall nothing that happened on the ship. It is best that way. He would not want to remember the sights and sounds of our world.
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