Ok so I avoided doing this for a few days, plainly because had I have blogged on my eviction day, I would have flamed...which would not have been fair on anyone, least of all my opponent, who I think to be a nice guy!! I've had a chance to reflect over it all calmly, and believe me, that I'm glad of!!!
After Newbie Stars 28 I was apprehensive about the thought of doing it again, but I felt the time was ripe for another shot. I had an idea I was going in a few days before the enrollment - I had tried to get in the previous week, but I was a blue at the time, and no blues got in! I managed to get purple in the week between 33 & 34, and then on began to really look forward to 34...particularly the prospect of working with the people I was going to, was really excited about that!!
The first 3/4 days of Stars were ace, stressful, but we were not doing badly at all. But gossip & stirring was spreading around the house like wildfire, and it was hard to kewep track of what everyone was saying, or whether they were really telling the truth.
The real turning point in the house was the nomination of Rockgoddess vs Laura..that was not supposed to happen. I have no idea even today why, but the blame was pinned on me. I was accused of splitting that vote, which I honestly did not do, I went with the vote we were planning on. That is ow known, and when it came out, my accusors did apologise, which I accepted. When I found out who HAD switched the votes though I was more than shocked...particularly as this person is a friend and was a close ally in the game. He was the one who also warned me that I was being suspected, and even that I was likely to face the vote. He also asked me if I had switched the vote...all along knowing he'd done it himself!!
The next day was my worst in the game, and probably one of the worst I've had on here...by then I knew who suspected me and wanted me out, and I was hurt by that, particularly as I had done nothing wrong!! I was being given the silent treatment by pretty much everyone in the alliance, I was petrified of the nomination and was just feeling like utter crap! It was the one day I was wholly regretting joining the game.
Soo my expected first nomination came, but not against who I thought it would be. I was hinted I would be against Blaze, so imagine my shock when Corey1 is sitting next to me on the chopping block! I admit to feeling confident at that point, because the pollbox was very much in my favour, and because of Corey's rep in previous stars [no offense to him though!] I survived which I was happy about, although I had great suspicions that my position in the game was shattered nevertheless - and it was. The person who switched the votes for Rockgoddess to go up faced eviction next - and was evicted - but at that point, because I now belonged to no group, my game was ruined. I was still a target, because by then I was easy pickings. I bear no grudges to those who put me up though...they had control whereas my game was snatched, and pretty much irritrievable, as much as I really wanted to do well. I would just have kept going up even if I had stayed. I was sad about it, but such is life...I was seriously played and I'll be the first to stand up and admit that. A part of me was glad that Blaze got to stay over me too [even if it was just for one day.] Like he said in his blog, I had played before and it was his first Stars. Another part of me was frustrated though, because I was ade a target through little/no fault of my own. But again, such is life.
I'm not sure if I want to enter again...I would have said a severe NO the other day...but what I would give for just one F3 placing...still that doesn't mean I will enroll every other time just for that. If I enter again, it will be when the time is right...which won't be for a while, not untill at least September anyways. I'm not gonna have the time untill then.
Obviously I want to say a massive thankyou to those who voted in my favour both times. I have not forgotten you at all :D Wouldn't have stayed that first time without your votes, so I owe you guys. <3 Also some of my closest friends on ere, who will know who they are, they put up with me stressing, moaning, whooping etc during my time in there...I'll always love you people. <3
I really enjoyed talking to the cast too, some I have played with before, some not. I found you all great, despite everything, and had some laughs in there! I hope I get to play with you guys again in better circumstances. I wish things had turned out differently, but maybe it happened for a reason, and this simply wasn't my time. I bear no grudges and hope we can still be friends!!!
I want to wish the F3 the best of luck...may the best one of you win, I grew fond of all 3 of you in there, despite it all. I've a paticular soft spot for XL and his legendary mancandy...his chats really did cheer me up a little when I was feeling most down by it all. Fair play to you how you stuck out all those noms!! Yes you WILL take me on a girlie night, to a haunt of the lustiest malefolk on planet Earth LOL :D
Overall...an interesting yet informative experience, which actually taught me alot more than my first stars did...mainly to be VERY carefull who you trust, and to keep communication going frequently. Oh and to say no where needed. :)
Seriously though, any outcome would be great now, whether you helped out me or not. All 3 of you are still great people. Goooood luck!! <3
Of lovely people who saved me in Stars. Unfortunately, I was evicted, but all the same I'm just so happy I made it so far, really wasn't expecting to!!
I will try not to make this too long, and nor will I go into long-whinded detail about every move I made...but take for granted lies had to be told, and harsh decisions had to be made to get me as far as I did. I know I upset some people in the process by telling such barefaced lies, and I'm sorry to those...but that is the game innit! Doesn't make me a bad person!!
Anyway enough with the negatives - I'm still remaining positive about my placing. 5th in my first Stars is better than I could ever have wished for :) I went in knowing a few people from past games, but my main aim was to maintain my tight alliance with one of my closest friends on the site, BlueStar. She was the one person in there whom I never would have dreamed of backstabbing, and I'm proud to say I kept that pledge even if others didn't!! Do NOT underestimate her as a player though, she knows how to rock the boat. Her eviction was imo the biggest travesty in there...which is saying something, as I adore the one who was her opponent too. I wished it wasnt them.
When Blue was evicted, I knew it was a matter of time. Although I'd formed a close friendship with EB & Bibs, they had to nominate just like the rest of us. I have absolutely no hard feelings towards them for putting me up, it was their job. I also know that EB worked her butt off to generate some support for me to stay, and although it didn't work, I am hugely grateful to her for doing that anyway. <3
Now a few scores to settle: * Madi & xl, I still like you two alot, I think you both play very well. I was just a bit stunned at you nomming Bluestar, although I appreciate you had your reasons/suspicions. That is fair enough. Also, I'm sorry you guys were duped by Nakomis & Blue re. the fake PM. Although I thought it was a GENIUS plan, I can promise I had no part in it whatsoever. * And for those saying I campaigned...that is utter rubbish. All I did was write a 'save me' blog...I did not PM a single person to save me, because I simply don't like PMing people I barely know. Ask anyone...I know for a fact my opponent PM'd people however, I have been given evidence. I also know about a Skype campaign to evict me...all I can say is well done, you guys were successful. *
Anddd now for some words of Thanks!!!!
Firstly...and I cannot believe no-one has given them a mention yet, after all it was because of them that Stars 28 became vet-free!! To Jubbzy & Randomize, both of whom worked tirelessly in the weeks running up to Stars. Although there were glitches, we got there in the end. It was an amazing and interesting experience and I thank you guys for making it happen. <3
To everyone in Stars for being them!! I have enjoyed chatting and getting to know most of you, and I hope to see people again in future games!! <3
To my lovely Skypette pals for their continued support and advice throughout Stars, you have been truly brilliant!! You know who you are and I love you guys!! <3
Oh and to my haters, who KNOW who they are...gerraravit, seemples. You succeeded, the end. Goodbye <3
Special mentions go to Mikedistanz for repetitively dishing out support for me in the poll box, which is something as I don't really know him!! You made me smile though with that support! <3 And also to the very lovely Surstromming, who took the liberty of mentioning me in his blog, as well as supporting me throughout. You're a total dude & I luv ya :D <3
And my last thankyou goes to everyone who savrd & supported me! You know I love you guys <3
Will I do it again? Not for a VEEERRRYYYY long time - it was way stressfull! Gotta admire the likes of Corey1 who repetitively enroll - how you cope with that stress is beyond me, yet very commendable! Very much want Samcutie to survive this nom...and I hope to see either Bibs or EB win now...both are amazing players, and lovely people. :)
