Ok so I avoided doing this for a few days, plainly because had I have blogged on my eviction day, I would have flamed...which would not have been fair on anyone, least of all my opponent, who I think to be a nice guy!! I've had a chance to reflect over it all calmly, and believe me, that I'm glad of!!!
After Newbie Stars 28 I was apprehensive about the thought of doing it again, but I felt the time was ripe for another shot. I had an idea I was going in a few days before the enrollment - I had tried to get in the previous week, but I was a blue at the time, and no blues got in! I managed to get purple in the week between 33 & 34, and then on began to really look forward to 34...particularly the prospect of working with the people I was going to, was really excited about that!!
The first 3/4 days of Stars were ace, stressful, but we were not doing badly at all. But gossip & stirring was spreading around the house like wildfire, and it was hard to kewep track of what everyone was saying, or whether they were really telling the truth.
The real turning point in the house was the nomination of Rockgoddess vs Laura..that was not supposed to happen. I have no idea even today why, but the blame was pinned on me. I was accused of splitting that vote, which I honestly did not do, I went with the vote we were planning on. That is ow known, and when it came out, my accusors did apologise, which I accepted. When I found out who HAD switched the votes though I was more than shocked...particularly as this person is a friend and was a close ally in the game. He was the one who also warned me that I was being suspected, and even that I was likely to face the vote. He also asked me if I had switched the vote...all along knowing he'd done it himself!!
The next day was my worst in the game, and probably one of the worst I've had on here...by then I knew who suspected me and wanted me out, and I was hurt by that, particularly as I had done nothing wrong!! I was being given the silent treatment by pretty much everyone in the alliance, I was petrified of the nomination and was just feeling like utter crap! It was the one day I was wholly regretting joining the game.
Soo my expected first nomination came, but not against who I thought it would be. I was hinted I would be against Blaze, so imagine my shock when Corey1 is sitting next to me on the chopping block! I admit to feeling confident at that point, because the pollbox was very much in my favour, and because of Corey's rep in previous stars [no offense to him though!] I survived which I was happy about, although I had great suspicions that my position in the game was shattered nevertheless - and it was. The person who switched the votes for Rockgoddess to go up faced eviction next - and was evicted - but at that point, because I now belonged to no group, my game was ruined. I was still a target, because by then I was easy pickings. I bear no grudges to those who put me up though...they had control whereas my game was snatched, and pretty much irritrievable, as much as I really wanted to do well. I would just have kept going up even if I had stayed. I was sad about it, but such is life...I was seriously played and I'll be the first to stand up and admit that. A part of me was glad that Blaze got to stay over me too [even if it was just for one day.] Like he said in his blog, I had played before and it was his first Stars. Another part of me was frustrated though, because I was ade a target through little/no fault of my own. But again, such is life.
I'm not sure if I want to enter again...I would have said a severe NO the other day...but what I would give for just one F3 placing...still that doesn't mean I will enroll every other time just for that. If I enter again, it will be when the time is right...which won't be for a while, not untill at least September anyways. I'm not gonna have the time untill then.
Obviously I want to say a massive thankyou to those who voted in my favour both times. I have not forgotten you at all :D Wouldn't have stayed that first time without your votes, so I owe you guys. <3 Also some of my closest friends on ere, who will know who they are, they put up with me stressing, moaning, whooping etc during my time in there...I'll always love you people. <3
I really enjoyed talking to the cast too, some I have played with before, some not. I found you all great, despite everything, and had some laughs in there! I hope I get to play with you guys again in better circumstances. I wish things had turned out differently, but maybe it happened for a reason, and this simply wasn't my time. I bear no grudges and hope we can still be friends!!!
I want to wish the F3 the best of luck...may the best one of you win, I grew fond of all 3 of you in there, despite it all. I've a paticular soft spot for XL and his legendary mancandy...his chats really did cheer me up a little when I was feeling most down by it all. Fair play to you how you stuck out all those noms!! Yes you WILL take me on a girlie night, to a haunt of the lustiest malefolk on planet Earth LOL :D
Overall...an interesting yet informative experience, which actually taught me alot more than my first stars did...mainly to be VERY carefull who you trust, and to keep communication going frequently. Oh and to say no where needed. :)
Seriously though, any outcome would be great now, whether you helped out me or not. All 3 of you are still great people. Goooood luck!! <3
you are too perfect of a person and I really regret ever doubting you. Things would have perhaps turned out for the better. Hindsight is 20/20 though, and unfortunately I learned my mistakes, as most of us in that house got hurt by that particular player.
I can't wait to join a rookies game with you, and i can't wait to see you in the Stars House again...this time me rooting for you all the way.
aww, TP, I'm sorry you had to go through all that. Stars is.... stars. And it can make you miserable and can be fun. I really thought you'd make it further, but things turned out strangely! Either way, you did great. :)
