As the end of this adventure is coming, I wanted to sum up what it has meant to me and how I have perceived it.
When I joined Stars I was so excited and happy that I got the chance to even be in the house. I had worked for two months to level up from black to gold in order to have a chance of enrolling the game. After becoming gold and getting some bets back, I managed to get 297.2 T$, thus having a small chance to join. I saw Uzeda, DripTeejay and mrkkkkyle join for around 297.8 T$ and got nervous, because it was so close to what I had... When I saw it dropped to 297.0 T$ I clicked so hard as if it was a key from castings, and I made it, I got into the Stars house.
Then I got time to ACTUALLY look at the cast and see what what I had got myself into. I saw some familiar faces, like Colter and DripTeejay, so I felt relieved. I tried to get in touch with as much of the cast as possible, but it was 1 am for me and I was really tired. Then I started to keep conversations with a lot of people, and seeing that I didn't go up for 16th nor 15th made me believe and trust in Colter and Teejay.
When I was talking to them and telling them how I felt and what I wanted to do, I had the feeling that they were giving me the runaround, trying to push me and "yeah yeah we will do that tomorrow". And tomorrow came my first nomination for 11th. I thought I messed up and didn't fully understand what was going on, because they had put lies in my head. While trying to figure out what was going on, I got caught in nomination again for 9th.
This is where I have to thank every single one of you for making me survive that poll and allowing me to snap out of it and take control of my game. I figured out that the people I trusted the most made me throw my vote in order to save themselves and had no problem doing it... so I had no problem switching and getting them one by one.
And this was something I achieved, to a large extent, thanks to ohhayy. I will always be grateful for that.
When it came down to f6, I knew there was no possible way that the people left will allow me to get to f3 unnommed, so I had to make a tough decision and assess who my biggest competition was at the time, and that was Ohhayy. You gave me back the possibility of believing that I had a voice, and the decision I made was probably the hardest of the whole week, but it was the best for my game and I'm sorry it had to be this way. I really am.
As I intuited, there was no way to get me out of the nomination for 4th, so I faced it in the most dedicated and hard-fought way possible. I deserved this place in the final and I fought for it. And thanks to you, again, I managed to become a finalist in my first stars.
This has been an intense week, in which I have slept rather little, and in which I have felt a whirlwind of emotions. But it has all been worth it to see your support, the signs of affection and to know that you have been part of this wonderful experience.
I would like to thank all the people with whom I have shared this week, both inside and outside the house. To my cast mates, even though I haven't had many conversations with some of you, you have been part of this and I thank you for that. To Ohhayy, for having to put up with the most messy bitch in the house and make me see the light.
Finally, I can only wish the best of luck to both of the other finalists. Colter I did not enjoy your game, I wish I could say you didn't let me down and you deserve this, but you made it, you did whatever it took to get here and it worked, so congratulations for that and good luck :) mrkkkkyle 33rd time's a charm? Idk but Jujubee would be so proud of you. Best of luck!
