CONFESSIONAL
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Hufus D. [Rotorua Tribe]
Wow, I'm REALLY stressing over this tribal and I have no idea what to do at this point. I'm really nervous cause I've been pointed out as the biggest jury threat in Touchy Subjects and I'm worried this could influence my demise at this tribal council. There's also the fact that I'm a previous winner and I've already won 2 immunity challenges, of course, but who's counting? I hope no one LOL
I hope the Nop/LIam x Kolby/Slothy conflict is way bigger and stronger than me being a target, cause that's been part of my strategy so far. I've kept them both safe in a way that they'd go after each other and I could slip by and sit my fat ass in the FTC. Will it work? Who knows, but I hope it does. I've just heard that Liam was the main reason why Kolby went home in Cutthroat Survivor, and the round before that he threw a challenge on purpose to try to get rid of Liam, so the feud is strong and alive... I somehow feel safer after that. But I know Adam/Ryan has an idol and he's been trying to get me out for a few tribals now. He's legit the only person I'm not talking to at all, cause I extremely dislike him and I don't fuck with fake people. He acted so nice, but he's been talking shit about me behind my back and hell no, I don't appreciate it at all. The only problem is this bitch is a goat (the animal goat) and everyone knows that, so no one wants to target him even though we're pretty much aware he has an idol SMH I don't support this and jesus christ I want him out so bad!
And btw, talking about idols...
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I CAN'T BELIEVE I FOUND THE MERGE IDOL! This was extremely hard and I was starting to doubt myself and to think that I was rusty and I should definitely retire... But then I saw the light in the end of the tunnel... HEY MA I MADE IT! I'M SO FUCKING PUMPED!!!!!!!! This opens more doors for me as now I have a way out if I'm the target tonight. But I'm really hoping that's not the case. If I survive this one and I win the next immunity challenge, I have a guaranteed f4, and I know that if this isn't the case or if I I don't go on a winning streak, no one's taking me anywhere near the end and that SUCKS. It's the game, so I'm dealing with it on my own way.
So this tribal is a puzzling mess and I'm trying to figure out which pieces fit the best for me. On one hand, I could go with the Kolby vote and hope that I'm not being lied to, or I could go with the Nop vote and hope to save myself in the process. The thing is I know Nop and Liam are way more close to each other than they are to me and they also have Ryan as part of their group. They've been hiding stuff from me for a long time, like how Adam shared the clues with them and they only decided to show/tell me that once I won the challenge and they needed mine, or how Liam knew Nop had the N&R idol and I was completly left out of that. I'm not stupid, I know they are just using me and I'm doing the same to them. I'm acting like I'm cool and going strong with them, but I know that once Kolby's gone or whatever, they are going cut me. Unless they are doing it now, of course, and that's why I'm leaning towards prob doing Nop.
Well, they are telling me us 3 + Chandler (and he told me it as well) are voting Kolby, idk about Ryan, and Kolby and Slothy are probably voting for Nop. I'm concerned that Nop and Liam could be voting me with Ryan, while expecting me and Chandler voting Kolby and Kolby and Slothy voting Nop, so I'd go home in a 3-2-2 vote. Am I being paranoid? It depends on your perspective... You call it paranoia, I call it being careful. To top it all off, a lot of people have been inactive so far, so I can't really get a sense on what's happening. I'm usually good at noticing when people are bullshitting me, but I can't do it if...they are not here. LOL
Ugh, so many things, so many thoughts, let's see what happens tonight. I just know that I'm S