- I haven’t been very active on here the past few weeks and I wanted to update those who care on how I’m doing. As some of you know, I was a teacher. After a rough start following college (middle of COVID) I jumped around schools and never found a home. I ended up quitting for good after my dad had a stroke. I moved back to my hometown to take care of him and his business.
This was a really rough decision, but I didn’t have much of a choice. I have been really miserable the past few months. My mental health completely declined and I reached a low that I didn’t know was possible. I’ve been reluctant to share a lot of this because I hate burdening those around me with my feelings. I’ve felt like such a failure lately and have been so envious of my friends and former colleagues who are living their dreams and making progress as adults.
My 26th birthday was spent with me in the ER due to anxiety getting the best of me and convincing myself I was dying of something. Sitting there on what was supposed to be a celebration of my life allowed me to reflect on a lot. I decided to take a leap of faith and reached out to my old middle school to see if they needed me. Sure enough, within a week I was brought in to teach my favorite grade and subject.
I’m only a few days in and they’ve been hard. My body hurts and I’m struggling to get back into the groove of things. But I am so proud of myself for climbing out of the hole I was in. I felt truly lost and now I can feel myself growing as a person again. I quit smoking! Completely! I never thought I would be capable of that.
For any of you sitting on the edge, scared to take that leap … do it. Risk it all. Put all your cards on the table and give yourself the chance you deserve. It’s worth it and you’d be surprised of what you can accomplish.
Sorry for the word vomit, I wanted to share with you all how things are going. ❤️
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