I didn't think I would be posting another blog about this, but here I am. I originally hadn't planned to post this, but since many people asked, I figured I might as well. I thought to myself, why share my story, if I'm already getting hate before I even had a chance to? Why share my story, when most of the hate comments I'm getting are alanb1's close friends who are just attacking me for him?
But, since this is a trending topic on tengaged, here I go. So, alanb1 and I started off meeting on on Skype game, basically similar to Tengaged but on Skype you could say. He introduced me to his friends, which were very sweet at first! One of them donated me this new weave I have equipped actually! But anyways, things escalated quickly between me and him, and we started dating. (We only live 2 hours away from each other) Things got heated with me and his friends, after I found out that one of his friends, Nick, sweetblossomrose1, screenshotted my instagram feed, and made fun of me with his friends? Which confused me because when I joined the skype chat, they were all up on me calling me hot, but anyways. I left the group chat after that and just dedicated ALL of my freetime to alanb1, in his words, made him felt like he was special, and a way no man has ever made him feel before. We would talk almost every morning, and every night. I literally dedicated myself to this guy, and trusted him.
But just like usual, things didn't go right, they didn't last very long. It was simple at first, he started to become super clingy, and obsessive, messaging me at the worst times. I didn't mind him messaging me, but it was the fact that he got mad when I didn't respond immediately, when I was doing something important such as school work, cleaning, cooking, taking a shower... etc. So I broke up with him, I wasn't feeling it, I felt as though he was way more attached to me than I was to him. So he freaked out of course, and I tried to talk to him about it but he wouldn't listen, so he blocked me on every social media site there is. I quickly got over it, as it has happened to me several times before.
I was a little upset because, I felt like that wasn't what I truly wanted to do, but he left me no choice. All of his friends hated me, and I didn't want to me around that. Shortly after, I see a whole bunch of his friends making blogs about me on tengaged, attacking me personally, so I got a little upset because I didn't think he would be that type of person to do that. Spread rumors about me to your friends, and completely destroy my name on Tengaged, even though he is the one who got me back into this site in the first place. He is a high rank, so you know he has a lot of clout on this site. But I felt powerless, I felt betrayed, so I posted a blog saying "You know.. recovering deleted videos is a thing." I made it just for him, so that he could stop what he was doing, and realize who he's messing with. I shortly deleted the blog 10 minutes later. I 100% did not plan do leak the video he had sent me during our relationship, but I threatened him to, just to get him to leave me alone. My mistake because, he got even worse after that.
So, I wake up the next morning to my IRL brother texting me, sending me screenshots of mine and Alan's private conversations, saying that he got it from a friend, begging him to tell my brother, to tell my MOTHER, to get me to stop. That made me pretty furious, that he'd get my family involved, after I specifically told him I don't involve them in my online crap. Although my brother did not care, I was still upset over the fact that he would even go that far. My family already knows I'm gay, so I didn't have to worry about that. But if they hadn't known, he would've outed me right then and there. So, I message him and confront him about it. I tell him, "How would you like it if I messaged your brother and tell him about everything so he can tell your parents?" He ignores my messages, and again, I did NOT once, NOT ONCE leak ANY video, OR tell ANYONE in his family about his sexuality, or did I force him to! But anyway, he ignores my messages, and I go on with my life, until I see a blog on tengaged, alanb1's "I came out to my parents" blog, completely bashing me, and blaming me for being forced to come out to his parents.
Of course, he gets so much love and support in his blog, because he made himself sound like the victim, and manipulated the story into ME being the bad guy. Most of the comments were by his friends, so of course they are gonna support him. I am not offended or affected by it whatsoever, but I make a blog anyway. I didn't, at the time, feel the need to tell my side of the story since I was already getting so much hate, but I made a blog about the overall idea of what happened, and telling the haters that they don't bother me. Since then, I have gotten DEATH threats, hateful, disgusting messages telling me how horrible of a person I am, people speaking to me as If I actually leaked his video, or told his family anything, which I did NOT, and he did to my family! I was only trying to get back at him for what he did, and in a sense, he didn't get his karma because I only threatened, I didn't take any action like he did.
But I made this blog to tell my side of the story, to let my story be heard, I was inspired by a comment that said "There are two sides to every story" so thank you for that comment! illustrious! Sorry. But yeah, I hope at least some of you can see through his lies, and believe my side of the story, believe me and accept me for who I really am, Instead of how many I reach. <3 Popularity on this site really affects the way people can be put out there, and easily can have rumors upon rumors spread about them. Some guy today accused me of having several multi accounts, which I think is so funny, because even Alan knows this is my only account.
Thank you for all those supporting me, although there aren't many, each and every one of you matters to me. And for the people who are hating on me, I got T$ from all the hate in my last blog, so thank you too! Xoxo <3
UPDATE: For those who immediately take his side before reading my full blog, stop being a follower.. be your own person. Just because he's popular on this site doesn't mean he's always right.
peace123 and alanb1, forgot to mention, another reason why I broke up with him because I knew you two were still a thing, like who stays friends with their exes? Not me, lol. But yeah, Connor you can zip it because all you know is what Alan lied to you about. And Alan, I'm deleting your comment since you deleted mine on your posts. Xo
survivoreborn that's why IF YOU READ MY MESSAGE I gave you my skype so we could TALK about it and you could tell me your truth. However all you have shown me is jealousy and spite and your insecurity is taking the better of you. I've felt Alan's pain the last two days and could have SNAPPED on you but I didn't say a single word to you because I know YOU were going through things too. Don't try to spin this, don't be delusional. You'll delete this one too and probably won't read this but doesn't hurt to try :)
peace123 you're being a hypocrite. Don't criticize me for deleting your comments when you did the same thing to me on your blog. Plus, you never messaged me on skype, if you did, I didn't see it. And I actually read through all of your comments, unlike you did, you clearly did not read my full story because you're so quick to hop onto your boyfriends side.
survivoreborn ??? what blog? I never blogged about you or deleted a comment from you if i remember correctly. If I did delete your comment I apologize but I don't remember ever blogging anything... and I haven't messaged you on skype because I don't know your skype LOL which is why I gave you mine so YOU can message ME if you want to. I don't care to go out of my way to speak to you but I'm saying that I can relate to the feelings that you're feeling so if you'd like to reach out to me I'm here to speak to you without bashing you like Alan's other friends.
And I did read your entire blog believe it or not, I was just very uncomfortable with you coming for someone like @J299 because he is so sweet but I realized you got the name wrong and the person you are talking about is indeed psychopathic. So that's what I focused on but again, it's cleared up now.
Also he's not my boyfriend, I broke up with him for a reason LOL if you feel like he wasn't actually ready to move on into another relationship then that's reasonable but please do not try to claim false facts. If I wanted to date him I wouldn't have broken up with him, bottom line. <3
Although Alan is my bestie I'm ALWAYS looking for the tea and always take the side of the facts. So if Alan is lying to me then I have no problem taking your side provided there is evidence for what you're saying.
So again, my skype is connorxxo IF you want someone to talk to about it because I know it can be hard, especially putting all the hate you're getting on top of that. Been there, done that, so I can help if you want it but ONLY if you want it. :)
peace123 yeah, I was talking about nick sweetblossomrose1, not James j2999. I confused their accounts because they were both from the same chat I was in. But I appreciate your respectful tone with me, but I think I'll pass because I've said everything I needed to say in my blogs, there's not much else for me to say.
peace123 I've been moved on, it's just my name was completely destroyed on tengaged because of alan so I wanted to at least give my side of the story like people were asking.
see how much better this is instead of acting like a bitch? I don't know who to believe. I think you need to send the video to his parents just so everyone's on the same page. did they see the video? did they not? did he lie about them seeing it? we will never know unless you just send it anyway.
oh i didn't read why I was tagged lol
"And I just wanted to tag all the people who hated on me, threatened me, and harrassed me! Maybe read this if you're open-minded enough."
can you please show me how i did any of that? I merely pointed out that you sounded like a bitch and weren't helping your case in your previous blog which was true......... You're getting hate because someone lied about what you did and now you're doing the exact same thing? lol...
So, now I’m stuck. Without proof from either side, no one has proof. Which means emotions and perception counts. Couldn’t you have manipulated the story you just told too?
RealJacksonWalsh you have a point, but in my story I give details on both sides, things we BOTH did, whereas in his blog he only states things that I did but manipulates it in a way to make me look bad. It’s your choice who you believe, but Alan made a blog responding to my blog and he didn’t deny anything I said so.
I don´t hate you lol trust me i don´t hate anyone and like in all problems, Nobody is going to know at 100% what happened only the people that had the problem so i can´t say anything from everyone, i jut want to make people feel better <3
I didn’t threat you or harassed you... so I don’t believe a crap of what are you saying because you are starting a rumor about my persona that is doesn’t true
I still believe you are a creep to hold on a video and threat alanb1 you maybe look mature and grow up in this post but I can see through your bullshit, you are just scared and deserve the hate.
If because of people like you that the gay community is never taken srsly
