I'm a little sad today y'all. The professor I have for many of my 3D VFX classes really disagrees with me and today I got to a point where I realize it's more him than me. Like I know I have improvements to make in both my 3D modeling and how I am as a person, but he's someone I can't vibe with at all. He goes too fast, like if you take your eyes off what he's doing for a second you'd be too much, it's hard to ask him questions and he jumps to other things you're not asking and goes to the beginning of what he was teaching even when you clearly asked him about a step you were lost on, he rambles on and makes a bunch of pop culture reference jokes like he's Peter Griffin, commonly talks about "Once you get a job in the real world, I'll need this advice" and just It makes me nervous. Plus, with grades it's all or nothing. Like the class average for an assignment was a 90 and I got a 50. This was partly because I forgot a cheat sheet, but it seemed like it was mostly because my sword and shield had poorly drawn concept art. On the other assignment I got a 70 because it didn't really look like a bottle and the class average was 95. Right now I have a 70 and this is not a good grade for the class, especially since they are the cornerstones of the major. I want to read carefully. I know the race isn't really about grades, but it's still hard to deal with. He also seems like the only professor of a course I really want to take. So yeah, I'm not in a very good mood today.
I've made a severe and continuous lapse in my judgement, and I don’t expect to be forgiven, I'm simply here to apologize. So what I did yesterday in the castings was obviously unplanned, and the reactions I typed were raw, they were unfiltered. I didn't knew how to react, or how to feel. I should have never posted the comments. I should have put the keyboard down and stopped typing what I was going through. There's a lot of things I should have done differently but I didn’t, and for that, from the bottom of my heart, I am sorry. I want to apologize to Tengaged. I want to apologize to anyone who's seen the comments. I want to apologize to anyone who has been affected or touched by trolling, or lyric spam, or ironic sportscasting, but most importantly, I want to apologize to the victims and the hg's. For my fans who are defending my actions, please don't. They do not deserve to be defended. The goal with my content is always to entertain, to push the boundaries, to be all inclusive in the world I live in. I share almost everything I do. The intent is never to be heartless, cruel, or malicious. Like I said, I've made a huge mistake. I don't expect to be forgiven, I'm just here to apologize. I'm ashamed of myself. I'm disappointed in myself and I promise to be better. I will be better. Thank you. #shops#casting#rookies#frookies#survivor#fasting#hunger#stars
You post 1 page of spam with lyrics from iShowSpeeds iconic World Cup song late at night and do some more trolling and everyone hates you and says you ruined the fasting like the hell?! #shops#casting#rookies#frookies#survivor#fasting#hunger#stars
