but seeing her snapstories with another dude just hurts and sends me right back to rock bottom :/
Fuck me for being an emotional person
EDIT: Thanks for all the warm messages and support -- I was honestly not expecting it, I just felt pretty down last night over something and this cheered me up a lot. Thank you to all of you!
EDIT 2: In terms of the advice, I really wanna thank yall for the encouraging words and advice! It's tough -- 100% self inflicted tho, I feel like I would delete her but we've both tried to stay as friends bc we have a lot mutuals and I didn't want it to be awkward for them. It's tough cuz when it happened I just wanted to be a nice person about it and I didn't wanna put my mutuals in a tough spot to "pick a side" or whatever. I knew about the fact that she got with someone else, but I felt like I could slowly accept bc if I cared about her 100% I'd be happy for her -- so socials shouldnt be an issue. Also, I thought that having her on socials would actually help me get over all my feelings for her eventually and it'd be like normalized. It might be dumb, but I didn't want it to be awkward for everyone bc we were all very close, a lot of my friends were good friends with her, I didn't wanna force them to break that, so I wanted to keep this personal situation lowkey idk.
and I'll write something about you NATURALLY...unfiltered thoughts (could be an opinion, thoughts, memory, yadayada)
tigger: honestly that pyn opinion you wrote about me like a month ago was so nice bro... just know it's mutual! You've always seemed really friendly+nice idk why but i swear we were in a casting together once and u were like xtremely nice =] I also love how you and imtht have been besties for a decade #goals. Also ur username is iconic tigger>Winniethepooh
survivor8: I'm quite shook that you hate two TORONTO GOATS...CHAMPAGNEPAPI and JT... jealousy tbh. YOU WANNA KNOW WHAT SUCKS MORE THAN THE ISLES ...THE ISLES FANBASE!!!!!! haha jk...kinda. You're a chill dude tho so I gotta cut you some slack...the blogs page fitness trainer with them push up blogs. What saves you the most is you being a CHELSEA scrub like myself tbh...the thought of getting WERNER & HAVERTZ makes me feel some typa way. Ok im in a good mood now, goodluck to the isles.
Guigi: idk why but whenever I see your username I say GUIG leaving the "i" so it sounds like GU WEE GE!! Kinda random but facts. That honestly just got me remembering all the nicknames I've given you over the years... Luigi, Sid the kid, GOOGLEGI, habs loser, frenchie... etc. Anyways it's wild how long we've known each other, you're a swell dude -- im sorry ive been horrible at replying pls dont hate me.... you still the only habs fan in the world whom I acc like... that's huge.
lemonface: LEMONY SNICKET! *waves from hunger graveyard* That hunger was really a series of unfortunate events! Ok book nerd jokes aside you're a really nice and funny person. Kinda insane how you have a legion of lovers ...being alive to watch the rise of the lemonface Tengaged empire overthrow randomize supreme's reign is pretty cool, a moment for the history books for sure. Also ur name throws me off, pinkerdinker would've been a better username for ur aesthetic tbh.
jacksonjoseph99: Jackson JAckSOn JACKSON. YOU legitimately have become one of my closest FRIENDS after coming back WHETHER you believe it or not. I can't lie when I got added to Jackson's sheep I was intimidated but I feel like we got along in no time. APOLOGIES for being a FLOP of a HUNGER ALLY and a BIGGER FLOP as the WORST RATED ESTOY- GROUP GAMER.... idk why the viewers hated me so much.... like true im the worst idol hunter but like..ok. Also, you're like one of the most selfless dudes on this website... for all you youngins reading this opinion (like by chance you read this and u arent a jj99) this dude is one of the best dudes on tg. BUT IF U GET on his bad side (by fucking with his friends) he ROARS yo...literally you da PRIDE AND HEART of ESTOY- and like every chat im in LOL.
Arris: arek parek gayrek grandparek, probably my oldest active friend on this site. The dude I trust with pretty much everything. Affinity gang GANG. I remember talking to you, Carlab, and yepal everyday in that affinity chat back in the day. OUR SPARRING SESSIONS ARE LIKE ONE OF THOSE THINGS THAT NOBODY KNOWS ABOUT BUT is legendary regardless. Remember plug dj binb and all that shit in 2015 me too =[ wish we could go back sometimes i cant lie. I'm glad I get to finally meet yo ass in the UK in 3 years, i'll get to see if ur as gay as u act on tengaged!! haha jk..... kinda hurt u didnt join castings with me tho :( also ur getting so much better at comps im a proud sensei! Brand New Lamborghini fuck a cop carrrrr, ok i cant lie rockstar is catchy -- you got me
Bengalboy: ah the young fake/real canadian! I legit cant believe I wasn't here for when you visited Canada... my loss tbh. The mans been flexing since the 2009s jesus chic magnet. I'm still waiting for that one day when I get featured on one of your top blogs with a quote... ngl as a noob that was my dream. U prob have the most iconic avatar of tg... Id like to think you're orange to emulate the BENGAL tiger but idk, also everytime I walk the roads of YONGE AND DUNDAS in Toronto I'll know that uncle dru was here. "Top Respect" *thumbs up*
Anthousai: #KRISTA. Meeting you in the OG ESTOY- HUNGER was iconic, that game was just so good... except for the fact that we all flopped but hey we got closer bc we were losers! The Ludo queen playing 6 man free for all mode alone...GOAT shit right there. Finding out you were a baseball fan was like discovering gravity... it just made sense. ALTHOUGH....Bo Bichette deserves to be on your "baseball hot guys" list ... absolute all around stud with a mad flow. I've done a research report on him already.... batting avg, home run scouting, hair routine, personality check, chin sharpness rating, you name it... just let me know if you need it -- he deserves to be on that list. Also tell Willie to come back to estoy- I miss that king... GL IN GROUP GAME make the estoyians proud.
Spark_: SPARK UNDERSCORE MY GUY. That castings like 2 months ago was iconic.... meeting you and James was pleasant surprise. Hold on *checks my games history for that casting* *scrambles back*... damn can you believe we met 64 days ago:
JasonXtreme 64 days 23 hours ago
Yo SPARK_ !!! I wanted to say you were overrating me too much on that PYN blog
back then you OVERRATED me, THIS time I GET TO HYPE YOU and it aint overrating when it's TRUE. Like you're actually a hidden gem on this site. I'm upset not more people know of/about you, you're LITERALLY TENGAGED's NEWS ANCHOR. Tengaged needs newer users and I'm glad I got to meet a future star in his young wild and free days... I remember as a newer player I mailed people I thought were cool.. I've always wanted to be a cool tv star for someone newer -- not saying I was that for you, but regardless I'm honoured to have welcomed you to this site. Hope to see you sometime in a game before I scadoodle away from here into retirement!
Admir: One of the dudes I the respect most on this site. You're so kind, so drama free & so funny. Great qualities of a TG user haha. I feel like I've always wanted to become closer friends with you bc we have so many mutuals and you're just a chill dude. Remember that CROOKS that we played... ngl that mike is the best or whatever user ruined our moment but it was an iconic game. Ok enough of the SAPPY stuff now... go cure Corona so I can leave tengaged bruv.... ACTUALLY WAIT before you use your MEDICAL BRAIN to develop the vaccine, redo your PLANETS RANKING....absolutely SHOCKIN that Earth was not #1... I might be biased but like cmon bro. Haha love ya bro, always nice to see you around feel like i've known you foreverrrrrr.
imthtawesom: ok legit IM THE WORST SKYPER on this SITE. I DONT ACTUALLY MEAN TO RBOMB OMG....it's crazy bc I dont think you remember me that well but when I was a lil noobie I remember talking to you bc I thought you were so nice. I remember your avi being some dude with black wonderland hair kissed cheek skin a black suit tie undone holding a rose or something... iconic. This site brings back too many memories tbh, but it's awesome seeing another CANADIAN and WILD that you graduated like 20 mins away from where I live. Also LOWKEY LOWKEY I remember when I bamboozled you, jade and tigger one time in survivor and yall hated me LAMOOOOOOOOOO
Cheritaisdelicious: CHER... a part of me wishes I was named Xavier, your nickname for me is the best thing evaaa. You're honestly really chill and loyal ally in frooks EXCEPT THAT ONE TIME YOU SENT ME PACKING AS HOH..... i'm sorry I wasn't wearing pink! Haha but real talk, never had a problem with you and you've always been nice and FUNNY on BLOGS PAGE. IDK WHY BUT I SWEAR IVE NEVER SEEN U on TG before my break which is like... WILD. Also lowkey I have no idea what Cherita IS BUT I'll ROLL WITH IT BEING DELICIOUS!
meduncan: I remember you REALLY WELL for some reason like from WAY BACK. Probably because you were frequently in STARS and my light green lvl ass was like damn this meduncan dude kinda cool with his stick avatar too. LOL also you slaying shellybelly was just beautiful, poetic justice. A king. Yo but fr your avatar is soo cool robbed from findme appearance no lie. But... why is your name MEDUNCAN WHEN YOU ARENT NAMED DUNCAN (I think)... Scandalous.
Thirteen: Okay bc this pyn blog is so random, let me attempt writing a "thirteen" esque opinion. Here goes nothing...
Thirteen. A user possessed by the devil. Legend says that Thirteen has a 6th sense that can speak to the skeletons of tengaged. JasonXtreme once contracted Thirteen to talk to his dear old skeleton friend JamieAndre... Also not many people know this but there's a deep dark secret that if you flicker your lights 13 times at MIDNIGHT and speak the ritual "Thirteen my sweet devil child come join me in this castings", a devil child will enroll in the game. Tried it before, hoping it'll work again tonight.
Hisoka: A true king. You're so genuinely nice, I feel like people that dont like you dont understand you or dont really know you tbh. I remember meeting you like 2 months ago and tbh it's felt like years. You're such a kind friend to the people you care about and I respect that a lot. I also owe you a crate load of gifts... thx for spoiling me king. ALSO THAT ONE TIME I BEAT YOU IN ZOO BC u were on mobile and had 50 secs less than me is still framed on my wall of tg achievements HAHA. We gotta run a frooks these days, where i'm literally the most useless floater and you carry my ass to f5 :D LOL jk ILL FLIP THE SWITCH ONE OF THESE DAYS. YOU ARE AWESOME, thank you for being such an amazing friend <3
PureEssence: ESS. We met many YEARS AGO and I feel like we both joined AFFINITY around the same time which feels soooo long ago. I still remember your crew with carsonworld, maddie, anoreoz, chris, marwane, etc... idk if you still hang out with them but LOL I still remember em. You've always been a really nice person and although U SENT ME PACKING IN ESTOY- GROUP GAME I'm not a bit salty bc I know u still a real one <3 I was actually really glad to see you when you csame back to tg from quarantine bc ngl I did not expect many people to still ROAM the SITE! Pleasantly surprised ngl! It's crazy how 5 years have really flown by and although our experiences on this site were pretty different -- I feel like we both grew up as ppl on here (sounds kinda sad but this place still made an impact imo). Just wanna say I'm extremely grateful that you were part of my story on tg and I'll always appreciate you as an OLD FRIEND! #CanadiansStickTogether
sorry blogs page for posting another one of these I was bored
1. Last beverage ~ Arizona
2. Last phone call ~ with my guy Roman
3. Last kiss ~ yikes... on Christmas Day :) 1 day before my breakup on boxing day!
4. Last song you listened to ~ What do you mean - Biebz
5. Last time you cried ~ next
HAVE YOU EVER:
6. Dated someone twice ~ unfortunately yes
7. Been cheated on? ~ I'm not 100% sure but probably emotionally cheated on
8. Kissed someone & regretted it? ~ unfortunately yes v bad decision
9. Lost someone special? ~ luckily, I have not yet
10. Been depressed? ~ yessir. Marvin's Room was on repeat
11. Been high? ~ NO! No WEED
LIST THREE FAVOURITE COLOURS:
12. Honolulu Blue
13. Navy Blue
14. Blue
THIS YEAR HAVE YOU:
15. Have you made new friends this year ~ yes
16. Fallen out of love ~ yessss
17. Laughed until you cried ~ no
18. Met someone who changed you ~ kinda, old friends more so
19. Found out who your true friends were ~ yes 100%
20. Found out someone was talking about you ~ yes
21. Kissed anyone on your top friends list ~ LOL good one!
TRUTH:
23. How many kids do you want to have ~ 2
24. Do you have any pets ~ yah, a black cat
25. Do you want to change your name ~ TG name... kinda, but irl I love Jason
26. What did you do for your last birthday ~A big group of friends surprised me with 2 bday cakes at my student house bc they knew I was goin thru stuff!
27. What time did you wake up today ~ 10 am ish
28. What were you doing at midnight last night ~ Watching Netflix
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for ~ regular life, seeing my irl friends in person again
30. Last time you saw your father ~ like today
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life ~ right now, I wish I could change this COVID situation and also my occasional stupidity
32. What are you listening to right now ~ ADDYS - Gunna
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom ~ LOL honestly no....
34. What’s getting on your nerves right now? ~ being stuck at home/losing a group game challenge by 6 points
36. What's your real name ~ Jason
37. Relationship Status ~ Singlelicious
38. Zodiac sign ~ Capricorn
39. Male or female ~ Male
40. Elementary School ~ good one p.s
41. Middle School ~ we didnt have a middle school in our education system (elementary school gr 1-8)
42. High School - if you know you know
43. Hair color ~ currently dark brown/black like my boy jon snow
44. Long or short ~ long luscious flowy locks
45. Height ~ 6'0 (184 cm)
46. Do you have a crush on someone ~ like kinda
47. What do you like about yourself ~ my chill vibes
48. Piercings ~ had a left ear piercing but dropped it
49. Tattoos ~ Nah we aint about that
50. Righty or lefty ~ Righty
FIRSTS :
51. First surgery ~ never
52. First piercing ~ left ear
53. First tattoo ~ never
54. First best friend ~ Nicholas G... pre-school buddy
In his plea, he begged ashszoke and Natepresnell for some water and food. The following messages are truly graphic. Viewer's discretion is advised.
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goldie77 2 hours 40 min ago
I had 4 food and 3 water lol
goldie77 2 hours 40 min ago
I'm scared
Natepresnell 2 hours 39 min ago
okay it's fine don't eat anything, and just eat 1 every dc
I'll tell you what to do, you should not have stoked the fire though
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It didn't end there.....
goldie77 16 min ago
omg I'm at 1 and 0 I need food
goldie77 16 min ago
can someone get water I have 0 lol
ashszoke 9 min ago
you don’t need water to live
Natepresnell 0 min ago
I said 1 food goldie
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As a survivor contestant on the opposite tribe, I can no longer sit here and watch the mistreatment of GOLDIE! #FEEDGOLDIE
