So I've been struggling all day to find the words to say to the three of you. At this point I'm really at a loss for how to put everything to words, so I'm just gonna start talking and see where my fingers take me.
I guess I'll start with Austyn, as I feel like I have the least to say to you. I genuinely enjoyed being your ally, especially on og Sayan. When we swapped and everything went down with throwing the challenge that first time, I really thought that I fucked up our relationship and thoroughly burned that bridge, all for the sake of saving Brandon's skin. Looking back, I guess that really was the first nail in the coffin, since I really feel like after that point we never connected the same way. After that point, I felt like we were both taking different paths in the same direction - seemingly together but never actually together. And honestly, I was fine with it, and it seems like you were too. When it got to the point that you were actively targeting Tyler and I, I knew that there would be no fixing our relationship and I kinda gave up hope that we'd ever be able to fix it. And once again, I was fine with it. I don't really have any questions for you except this (which I'm not sure if it's been answered, and I truly don't care enough to check if it has): did you tell Will to play his idol when KC went?
So next I'll go to Nikki. Similarly to how I felt about Austyn, we really felt like we were taking different paths in the same direction. I really enjoyed talking to you every time we did, but we really never talked strategy. One of my bigger regrets in the game is not talking to you more and really trying to strategize with you. At the same time, it seemed like you never really tried to strategize with me. Looking back, I feel like it was just such a hard situation for us to work together, but I really feel like we could've meshed well as allies, especially since we were both so close to Tyler. I feel like you've justified your game well throughout this FTC, so I don't really have any questions right now. If I think of any between now and tomorrow evening, I'll make sure to ask.
So I don't really know what to say to you, Brandon. When I said I was with you 100%, I fucking meant it. One of the last things you told me was that you hate always being the bad guy and hurting the people you care about, but is that really the truth? If you hate doing something, why continue to do it? For the sake of winning an internet game? I genuinely saw you not as just an ally, but a true, genuine, friend. And not only did you break that friendship, to also then lie to me immediately after about trying to change your vote after they were due? If you really wanted to save me, you would've played your idol on me. So do you really think I'm THAT fucking naive? I know I come off as someone who's nice but not that great at strategy or figuring out numbers, but I am by no means stupid, which you obviously think I am if you expected me to believe your bold face fucking lie. I was literally ready to lay down my game for you at MULTIPLE points in this game, I put MYSELF on the line SO many times for your sake, even going as far as going against my own fucking alliance to save your ass. And all for you to not only crush our friendship, but to top it all off with a shitty ass lie. You deserve every piece of criticism you've received up until this point, and whatever wrath the rest of the jury can conjure up over the next 24 hours. I hope ruining our friendship was worth you losing to a bitter jury.