Hufus | Confessional, Day 23, Serenidad
don't_dream_it's_over - crowded_house.mp3
okay im legit so pissed right now cause my #1 in the game just clearly stated he has doubts about saving me this round, which means I'm screwed and im going home.
can i just say how fucked up that is? JP just saved himself and probably won the game. Great. I can't believe I'm reliving Kuwait 2.0, this is such a fucking dèjá vu and I knew that doing Fred last round was stupid, but in the end I was outvoted by Will and Joshua. smh
All this effort just to get 5TH AGAIN. Just like Mud's HvV. I'm trying everything I can and I'm being so WOKE and it's making a lot of sense, but i guess people are just dumb. Honestly cannot with bitches riding my dick just to get them further into the game. I honestly feel so betrayed cause I can't believe I blew up my whole game with the Brady thing to save Will and now he's gonna repay me like that. I always get ahead of myself in those situations, cause I just can't sit pretty and watch someone I care leave... I just never learn that people just won't do the same for me. This is legit the last time I'm selectively playing nice in my life. Fuck friends and everything else.
I just want to say that I'm legit crying right now, but I have to assure you guys that I'm not gonna go fucking crazy like PsychoachWade. Also not crying because it's unfair or anything like that, cause it's the FUCKING game and I'll have to deal with it myself and go to Ponderosa gracefully... But it's tears of frustration. It's just so underwhelming, cause I thought I had 0 chances of getting far in the game after the incident and I was initially a bit fine with it, but despite all of the odds I got here and everytime I survived I was like "HELLW NOH, CAN I DO IT ONE MORE TIME?". I fought my ass off, slayed my enemies, found an idol, orchestrated at least 2 pretty AWESOME blindsides, and tried my best to write confessionals and bring entertainment to the VL... And this without having to win immunity. I'm really proud of the game I played, I'm proud of how I dealt with things and how invested I was in the game and that's it. It's normal to get emotional, especially if I go home right before the finale night knowing how good I AM, not only how I did, and that's something no one can take from me. Not even this vote.
But this is probably it. Farewell, my friends. Maybe now I can focus on my life and my classes. Probably gonna take a break after that, but it's been fun!