I'm writing this blog today hoping it would be a bit of therapy for me and so you guys can understand the effects of doing drugs. As much as I want to be tough I am a very emotional person. This drug has changed my life. I been very down lately, now I dont want to confuse you guys reading this but I do want u guys to understand how this drug is probably the worst thing human created besides other shit. But in my experience I've had people come and go bc of this drug.
When I was about 16 or 17, I was hanging with the wrong crowd. And I decided to try heorin for the first time. Not only did I inject myself but I had a bad reaction to it. I threw up for a couple hours and felt like I was dying tbh. But that rush u feel and calmness I would never forget. U feel this warm rush and I can feel it go thru my arm until I can feel it in my head. One of my worst experiences in life and to this day I have a scar on my left arm to remind me everyday of my choices. And I have lost many friends bc of this drug. I literally have to cut ppl out of my life bc they become pathological liars, go in and out of rehab and still claiming they are clean and at one point money has been stolen from me bc in the end all they care about is getting high. One of my main reasons why I got involved my first time(which was my only time as well) was bc I was not happy with myself. I felt trapped being someone who I wasn't. And it was a very painful experience for me growing up as a teenager and gay. But that's for another blog maybe. I tried to fit in as much as I can which just lead me to making a lot of bad decisions.
So I literally had to cut ppl out of my life who have been friends wit all my life. This drug destroys lifestyle and unfortunately I have to deal with this again.
Yesterday my roommate had stole my car and had relapsed. To my knowledge I had no clue he was continuing this shit. Yes he had done it before but I literally had to remove him from the place he was at bc he was doing heorin with his roommate at the time and he would beg me and crying to help him gtfo of that place. He promised me he wanted to better himself and he knows how much his drugs ruins everything. So he decided to take my car and go hang out with this piece of shit friend he calls and relapse. He overdose and he was rushed to the hospital.
It pains me so much that this fucking drugs take the better of ppl and causes them to be someone else. I try to mentally prepare myself for the worst but sometimes I can not be as strong as I want to. So I hope you reading this gives u an understanding how fuck up this shit is. I'm sending positive vibes to everyone, even if you're feeling down or just not having a good day. Just remind yourself your own worth. And continue everyday to love yourself. It took me a long time and I still have some work myself to do but everyday is a struggle cuz life is not easy.
Just be happy
You’re a strong human being and you are being an inspiration to others struggling with drug/addiction as well. Everyone struggles and not everyone is ready to stop using when you are, and i understand you hate having to isolate yourself from your friends but I promise you they’ll call you one day and thank you
I would’ve never shared this with tengaged.
Just be prepared to hear about this in games when you evict someone.
Aside from that I’m very proud of you. I relate to this very much so.
