but the more I deal with it the angrier I get. I havn't really addressed the situation but I'm just so fucking pissed about it that I can't leave it be any more. kelly0412 how dare you fucking ruin something thats supposed to be a special milestone I have to take in my life when I'm ready, and ruin it over an online game I barely did anything to you in. I wasn't fucking ready, and its really hard for me right now trying to converse with my brother about it when I really don't feel comfortable with the topic. I'm at least lucky he didn't have a harsher reaction, but it's supposed to be something I go through when I choose to. You keep telling me you're sorry but you're only sorry because people have been ripping on you for it, otherwise you would be laughing your ass off, and any apology you send isn't welcome. My relationship with my brother atm isn't the same, it just isn't. I just tried talking to him again and its just so fucking awkward. Maybe itll work itself out as time goes on but its just not fucking fair and its absolutely despicable that you would even think of doing what you did to me.
