Honestly 2018 was not the best year. It wasn't horrible, but it just felt like a waste. Towards the end of 2017, I pretty much went through this big event and 2018 felt like a "recovery year". I really don't feel like I had a "decent" year since 2015/2016. I am proud of myself that I have been a vegetarian since August 2017 and that's something I wanted to keep going in 2018 and I achieved that, but idk how to feel about it going into 2019.
To be honest, I have been playing this ORG since the beginning of October. It's final three and I'm so close to final two and the win. I am ready for it to be over because I do think it has taken too much of my time. However, I am so grateful for all the new people I met. I'd like to thank Holder, Hash, & DaddyDev for keeping me sane the last couple months. Moreover, I do realize I host/play a lot of skype games as many people probably know with my "Hosting Anarchy/Pink Box @ 10PM EST" posts. I do thank my mini followers & fans, but I do think it's time to not necessarily take a "break", but to host much less than usual.
Ever since I came back from South Korea in September 2016, I feel like my life has been on pause and 2019 will change. But only if I get off my ass and do something about it. I am going to be 25 at the end of April and I'm not content where I am right now in life. The only person to blame is myself. I DO NOT believe in "new year resolutions". But I do believe in short term and long term goals. Procrastination is not going to be an excuse anymore.
I do think it's hard because I've grown apart from a lot of IRL friends. And most of my friends I felt closest with are just far in distance especially since graduating college and living abroad, so I do think sometimes it's just hard to keep in touch. I've used TG folks as an outlet socially and I think it's fine to have online friends obviously, but I do think I need a better balance and "offline time" may be that.
Overall, I am not a fan of New Year's and I kind of loathe January, but I am ready for some change in my life. I really do believe in predestination in a non-religious way, but my future isn't going to change in itself. I need to make my Mr. Ants a priority right now and not Pink Box 24.
I am wishing my friends and the TG community a great 2019.
“ I DO NOT believe in "new year resolutions". But I do believe in short term and long term goals. Procrastination is not going to be an excuse anymore.”