I don't care what you've said or done in your life, you CAN be forgiven. I don't care if you've robbed 8 banks, killed 70 people, are a serial rapist, a child molester, cheated on your spouse 16 times, or had 5 abortions. You CAN be forgiven. You may think you don't deserve forgiveness and that's true. NOBODY deserves it yet we are given it anyways as a gift. How beautiful is that? Every single one of us is a filthy, rotten sinner but God still sees beauty in each of us anyways. If there was such a thing as being "too bad of a sinner to be forgiven" then Heaven would be empty because one sin is enough to land a place in Hell if you don't have Jesus. If you've accepted Jesus as your savior, ALL sin will be forgiven (if you're truly sorry) and you WILL go to Heaven.