Hufus - Confessional
call me friend but keep me closer
and ill call you when the party's over
Mwah. This might be my last confessional of this game.
Last tribal things went batshit crazy. I've been talking how I had to do certain things against certain people b4 they did it to me, and that's why I lied and blindsided Grace last tribal. I just had to do it. It wasn't anything related to Nathan's alliance x Julian's alliance, it was more about my own game. Actually, I don't think I fit in neither of them, which is why I'm 80% certain im being voted out in this post-swap tribe with Nathan's alliance + me and Harry. LOL
Harry's confident we have the votes bc he's been hardcore flirting with Jake, but I don't think that's the case. I mean, it mightve saved him, but I don't think that's enough to save me, and which is why I'm not resting rn, even though it's actually my bday and I shouldn't be here LMFAO My only hope would be either having Ryan saving me, which is unlikely after how pissed he got with me lying to him and voting out Grace, or me turning on Harry and trying to make things happen. Don't get me wrong, I LOVE Harry with all my heart, but I basically blew up my own game after saving his last tribal, as he was the main target for the Fabulous Foursome alliance, and I refused to vote him as I consider my friend. But should I jeopardize my game and actually get myself voted out now? I don't think so. I'm not willing to do it. I broke my 100+ days away from tengaged to play this game, and I might have not the chance to play another game anytime soon bc next month I'll be in another rotation with barely available time to breathe.
I'm facing a moral dilemma rn, cause I actually don't know how the chips will fall. There's also the chance I'm being hella paranoid, which could turn out to be a massive fail on my part, with me blowing up the whole plan, which is to vote DJ. I legit have no idea what I'm gonna do and I'm probably gonna hold my votes until the last time once again. As much as it pains me to say, I might need to work on Ryan, and that'll be hard after he got all personal after last vote. LOL God bless my soul.