Austin confesh
Unfortunately, this could be my last confessional of Suitman's Survivor. It's been one crazy season, but I never thought that the people in the final 5 would be the people in the final 5.
After my angry rant confessional, I'm going to tone it down a bit. But first, WHAT THE FUCK? @me losing the challenge. I'm REALLY pissed about myself. I studied that twists page for 30 minutes. In the first round, me and Nick slayed by being the first two (Nick only got 2nd because I told him the answers). However, the game crumbled in the second round. I could not find the second answer for the life of me. I went through every single twist and NOTHING fit the description. I was wondering whether Shawn mistyped something. That wasn't the case. Of course, the twist that Shawn was looking for wasn't located on the twists page because whoever edits the twist page forgot to add it in! I looked like such an idiot giving answer after answer the wrong thing. And, we have Nick here on the side like "wat?" At least he threw it to me. If I had an idol, I still wouldn't have thrown it to him. In the next round, I ended up going which honestly shocked me. Morgan and Jasper must've been a solid duo. I knew the 3 answers pretty fast and I sent in slightly slower than I sent my answers in the first round. And then, I got out. I was pissed. I waited to eat Arby's for the results. And, I would've won the final round probably because I knew literally every answer within 10 seconds. I'm just mad because now there's a chance that I'm not going to make f4 when making it that far was so close to being a reality.
So, it's time to scramble. I need Nick to use the idol on me and I need everyone else to vote me out. When it comes down to it, Nick's only shot of making it really far is either going on an immunity run or having me in f4 with him. Jasper and Adrianna (we're voting Morgan out) would target me before they target Nick if he lost immunity. (Yeah, I also need to go on an immunity run.)
I'm just not sure if Nick would make a huge sacrifice for me at the f5. However, I HAVE to convince him that everyone else is voting me out. If Nick doesn't play the idol on me and I go, I'll be pissed. If he plays the idol on me and he goes, he'll be pissed. I'll be upset too, but of course I value my position more. And, I think the vote's on me anyways. I just need to make sure that the vote stays on me and Nick uses the idol on me. I'm just worried that Nick won't use the idol on me because of his paranoia. If only Nick had paranoia at the right times, maybe he would realize that voting out Josh was the dumbest move of the game.
Anyways, if I go - I go. I just want to stay. If I do go though, I'm rooting for Jasper because he's manipulated everyone so well. I'll just be very jealous when he wins Player of the Season and I don't.