I didn't want it to get this harsh but you weren't letting go of me, and you can't have it both ways. You either let go completely, or you come back.
I just want to say that I DID have feelings, but I also had to live with my truth. I will say this however - I always felt that if I wasn't allowed to be with "A", I could not have thought of a better man to spend my life with. I didn't completely lie, I did love you and I would have settled for the life I would have led with you. It would have been mostly a pleasure and I probably would have been as happy as I could be with someone else.
But now you know the truth as I see it. As I said, I may not get what I want, but it IS the chance I'm willing to take and you DID let go of me, not the other way around.
I hope you are happy with your new friends - you left large shoes to fill and I can't imagine who could take that place. I know one thing - I definitely don't want to hurt like this again. I don't think I could survive it.
