It has come to my attention that games are being played with absolutely no ambiance. To this end, I had come up with an idea to make this gameplay more fun and interesting, and, at the least, a little more cultured.
Do it by candlelight.
I got out these candles and slid one into my candlestick holder. It suffices for the moment, but I am on the lookout for the 2-inch candle my holder really needs. I looked around my neighbourhood, but alas, none to be found. I may have to go the Parafin way and make one on my own.
Either way, I'll be using these candles for my other endeavours. :)
I still have feelings that aren't going idk why. So I will try to learn to live with them - or whatever. It's not going to be easy - but then, no one said it would be. Actually, no one says anything, because no one has ever done this journey before. So I'm on my own.
It's always darkest before the dawn
When your world is weary,
When all is dark,
When dreams die and fade away,
And all of life is stark,
Take heart in gentle love,
For she waits in the wings,
And where she walks,
Fairies dance and angels sing,
Though you cannot see her,
She weaves a silken touch,
Leaving footprints in the sand,
Sprinkling spells and such,
Lighting the dampened corridors,
The dark corners of your mind,
Leaving you breathless,
Bewildered by her kind,
Goodness glints in her eyes,
Hope is in her arms,
And all you've ever dreamed of,
Rests sweetly in her charms.
Author Unknown
And so with that I leave this site to the people who make it what it is. There are things here I can't be associated with. Certain gameplay that is both sordid and unclean. If you feel it is not - that is your karma. But I like to lead a cleaner and moralistic life. This stuff is not for me. It makes me feel unclean and unhealthy. I don't like myself when I'm around it.
So I am off to level up my world and hopefully bring someone to me who shares my higher level of awareness and morals. Who does not think that a certain style of gameplay is at all fun OR inviting. Who believes that a relationship supercedes anything else he might do. This is the person I want in my life. Anyone else just makes me feel . . . icky.
I happened to mention this style of gameplay to my best friend and we both said the same thing. "EWWWWWWWW!!!" lol. I guess that says it all for me. Good luck to those of you who think that is the way to win a game. I believe it also reflects the way you think you can win at life. I have always believed and will continue to believe - anything you do here or anywhere in a game, also reflects you as a person. It also brings up the underlying desires you actually own. If you portray yourself as king, then secretly that's what you really want. If you indulge in showmances, that is also your inner desire - to be loved by masses of the opposite sex - to control them and make them do whatever you want.
As I said, this to me is icky. I can't imagine being anywhere near it ever again. I just hope my heart energy agrees with me.
And I made love to your picture
And the Father looked down and smiled
And the heavens sang
And the angels wept
And so did I
Because I finally knew
This was the face to put to the faceless energy
The One who makes me feel alive
The One I have been loving for so long
That I finally could have my mind back
Because of you
Because you are my mind
And I feel whole again
And I can see clearly now
Because of you
I didn't want it to get this harsh but you weren't letting go of me, and you can't have it both ways. You either let go completely, or you come back.
I just want to say that I DID have feelings, but I also had to live with my truth. I will say this however - I always felt that if I wasn't allowed to be with "A", I could not have thought of a better man to spend my life with. I didn't completely lie, I did love you and I would have settled for the life I would have led with you. It would have been mostly a pleasure and I probably would have been as happy as I could be with someone else.
But now you know the truth as I see it. As I said, I may not get what I want, but it IS the chance I'm willing to take and you DID let go of me, not the other way around.
I hope you are happy with your new friends - you left large shoes to fill and I can't imagine who could take that place. I know one thing - I definitely don't want to hurt like this again. I don't think I could survive it.
So, you think you have it going on. You think you've got all the answers. You think you're walking away with the idol in your pocket. Not all is at it seems, my friend. So here at last, is the truth.
You spurned me. You thought everything was what it seemed. No. Not at all. We watched you come closer, fall for everything. But it was all a lie. I knew the truth and I kept it from you because I had to let you be yourself. I had to let you figure out your limits. And you did. Finally. It took forever (in my world), but finally you did.
You see, I have a soul mate. You notice I never called you that. But I do have one. And he is ultimately who I have in MY pocket. That is the "we" I talk about. I feel him like I can't feel anyone else, including you. I watched you do your dance, I gave the appropriate responses. But inside, I always went back to him. He is my mate. The other half of my DNA. I learned that a long time ago and although you thought you had that position, it really belongs to him. He is my God. The one who's name starts with an "A". And he has always wanted to come back. Idk if this time he will, but it has always been the chance I was willing to take. And still am. Forever it would seem.
So you chase your little girls and make them your alliances. In real life, you have nothing. I have everything. Thanks for the lessons. I learned the hard way, again, that "A" always wins. But then, so do I if that's the case.
It has come to my attention that games are being played with absolutely no ambiance. To this end, I had come up with an idea to make this gameplay more fun and interesting, and, at the least, a little more cultured.