I'm so sad today cause my mom had to go to the regional hospital and get hooked up to a portable heart monitor that she has to wear for 24 hours! It fits around her neck and there are little electrodes on her chest and the monitor itself is bulky. I saw it and how it affected her because she and my papa came to visit me after she got the monitor and she says that her family genetics plus past traumas may be causing whatever is going on with her health now. My bio dad and her other exes were all so mean to her and it crushes me every time I think about that; she is so good and didn't deserve abuse.
I will be so lost if something happens to her because she is my super best friend and has been for the 31 years I have been alive. I was born in the late 80's and the doctor wanted her to put me in a home for disabled people because he believed I would never amount to anything, but she told him to go to hell. She is my hero, my inspiration, and constantly encouraged me to try my best even if it wasn't perfect. My mom got in shouting matches with teachers and moved me from schools when they didn't think I was smart enough to teach. She has been around for all my major milestones and I literally cannot think about a life without her in it, but this is scaring me into having to think about it. This whole situation is scaring the hell out of me! Please pray for my mom to be all right! The thought of losing her is something I cannot cope with!
