I am now around people who want me to be happy, and want me to do the things I want to do. Its a strange turn on my past, so sometimes random situations pop up that cause me so much stress. . . Like yesterday
ALL THEY ASKED WAS FOR ME TO PICK SOMETHING TO EAT!!!!!! You cannot IMAGINE how dumb my brain is, but let me give you a few examples of what stressed me the fuck out that day:
#1 - Trapped
My roommates always park in such a way that I’m trapped and can’t get out without moving their vehicles. Well, two were out to work AND YET SOMEHOW THE LAST OF THEM (my ex) STILL MANAGED TO BLOCK ME IN!!! He worked a day shift, slept two hours, and then worked a night shift, so he was exhausted and I didn’t want to wake him up. I sat outside his room for HOURS until one of my other roommates gave me the incentive to go in and get them by snap chatting me: “did you go to the store yet”. Suddenly people pleasing mode overrode the system.
#2 - Driving
I… hate… driving. Maybe anxious people will understand but i fucking HATE IT!!! Especially when there’s a lot of people on the road. Like on SATURDAY NIGHT… and these people DO NOT follow the rules of the road up here in Anchorage.
#3 - Costco *shudder*
There are about 300,000 people living in Anchorage. About 100,000 of them were in Costco yesterday. It was like a herd mentality at both entrance and exit. Just a wall of people going in and out the whole time. I walked out of there with sparkling water (for one of my roommates because he is my favorite) and one fucking rotisserie chicken because I just wanted to get the hell out of there.
#4 - Disappointment
Snapped said favorite to tell him I got his water and what I’d bought. His response was “you only got a rotisserie chicken?” … yeah, I know it wasn’t much but that kinda stung. So I went to Walmart to get more. I get home, get everything inside, wake up my roommate AGAIN so I can park his car back in its original spot, and as I’m walking back in the door get a text “don’t forget pickles and mayonnaise”
clone right now, no. Its a few cents at the most. Maybe when it gets really cold / snowy / icy it’ll be worse, but for now it’s pretty much the same as down south.
