Jan (DarkTyphoon23) Confessional EP:11
so we really had a last minute paranoid-induced scramble and an extension, all for the result to end up being the SAME as we had expected??? messy messy messy.
but i feel with that vote, things have really shifted to where i have become a very flexible ally to pretty much anyone left in the game. and this middle position is arguably where i'm at my most dangerous... it's how I was able to maneuver around in suriname for a bit after all! of course, i'm going to need to cement myself on a "side", but the thing is is that there isn't really sides anymore, but moreso various factions and i feel like i have a good footing in each faction that i step foot into.
right now, i'm in the following:
- the Plan-Z 7, which i feel is going to break at ANY moment due to jimmy's paranoia and people not having it with him anymore
- the nutawitawi 5
- Benjamin's Angels of the suriname 3
- the winners' alliance
- a 6 person hastily made group of me/chandler/hufus/JJ/kellen/tyler
- a friendly relationship with james r.
- a watchful eye partnership with jimmy
eric's really the only person that i don't talk game with too much... but we do talk still about each other's personal lives and TREES, and i think he's a great guy, just not someone i'm closely aligned with unfortunately.
so, at the moment, i think i've really gained a good footing - i just really need to keep up being subversive in terms of my true loyalties and my position in this game so that i don't get CAUGHT. the only person that probably seems to have caught on so far is jimmy - who straight up told me he wants me to double agent for him bc he thinks i can play the middle really well. and i don't need that kind of info spreading around!!! the only other people that might be aware are JJ and Travis since i played with them, but i've been establishing much more trust with them this time around compared to last season. however, i'm always going to be wary of them in the event that they might choose to blindside me out of nowhere............. but for now, i think we've established that we do need each other for the time being
people are worried about an all winners alliance - which while it's true lmao... - i have been VEHEMENTLY denying but of course, will be using kellen as an ally/a meat shield for me bc he's playing a great social game and has friends on the jury already, but i'd rather much have him on my side so that we can keep using each other as shields, but i know down the line, he'll be a much bigger threat than me. but, i keep using the joking threat of "well there isn't one... but there can be if y'all manifest it enough" to keep people on their toes about it lmao...
people are also worried about fire tokens and have been asking me, but i've now began to use my steal-a-vote advantage as a kind of leverage to gain trust with others. i've told JJ and travis, along with hufus about it and they all believe they're the only ones that know about it. i'm sure that'll spread around lmao... but i tell them that i will use it to "our" benefit whenever i do need to... so hopefully that'll keep me in their good graces with that advantage.
speaking of advantages, i know that james r. has an extra vote, travis has the 50/50 coin, and supposedly chandler has the safety without power. and i've been very tight lipped in terms of keeping these secret, as information is power in this game and so i can use this to my advantage when people are claiming advantages and calling them out as bluffs if needed.
this game's going to get MESSY again super quick and i haven't exactly made a decision in terms of which direction i'd like to move just yet.... i'd personally like to keep things safe since it'll allow me to kind of keep playing under the radar/in the middle which is where i like to be with the amount of people still left in the game. i just need to really keep up this reserved nature and subversive gameplay for a little bit longer, just like how i played in suriname around this time as well, all the while keeping up a semi-trustworthy front and hopefully slither in on my way to the end of the week for finale night...!