I just found out the guy I love that I work with at Walmart, family is homophobic.
Like the guy knows I'm gay and he's nice to me, but his family, especially his father are extreme Christians who protest gay marriage and hate it. They even hate Halloween because they say it's a Satanistic holiday. It's just like ugh. I can never actually be friends with him then, because his family won't allow it or anything else.
It's just weird that I fell for a guy whose family hates my kind.
Why is it so complicated? I remember wondering what love was because I never experienced it, but since I have, I just want it to go away. It's just a burden for me, it sends my emotions in chaos and makes me feel crazy half the time.
Honestly, It's hard to be in love with someone you know doesn't love you back.
I didn't even mean to fall in love, it just happen.
I try to forget it or ignore it, but I can't.
The fact that I work with him and see him almost everyday doesn't help either.
He knows how I feel too, all my coworkers know.They said it was obvious, but I wish they wouldn't had told him, even if it was obvious to everyone. It just made things awkward for me.
He doesn't care how I feel though, he still treats me the same as before. He's just being nice though.I'm completely fine with being just friends with him too because he's an amazing person in my opinion, my feelings just complicate things and I wish there was a way to kill them.
I honestly just don't know what to do.I figured I'd ask people on tengaged because this site is full of cold-hearted bitches that probably could teach me how to shut my emotions off so they don't get in the way.
So to everyone that mailed me asking me to gift them, sorry, but I don't have any T$ left to gift you, if I was asked sooner, I would had gifted you guys because I just wanted to get rid of the T$, I have no use for it anymore really, but nobody asked, so I just gifted 2 of my friends.
