I tried to start medication for my anxiety. Instead, my body had an awful reaction to it and my heart nearly stopped as a result. Laying in the hospital bed, life leaving my body, was easily the most terrifying experience of my life. Ever since then I've been kinda stuck thinking about it. Why did I survive, when there's not much value to my life to begin with? What kept me here? I just don't know what to feel honestly.
And one month ago I played your org and had a fun time and meet new people all because you decided to host it. All because that day YOU SURVIVED.
It is hard sometimes to realize the impact you make on people, and you can find yourself thinking you made no impact at all, but because you survived you have continued to bring happiness in peoples life even if it was through something as small and trivial as an org.
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You seem like a good guy. I don’t know why you appear so hard on yourself. I really hope things get better for you. I’ve been a cunt to a lot of people here but I’ve never had anything bad to say about you < 3
you're alive for a reason and it's because your life does have value, a ton of people on this site love you, everything will get better given time and you'll come to realize why you're alive
You’re life is very valuable. You have done soo much for me whether it’s giving me advice and coming to be a shoulder for me. I’m sooo proud to call you a best friend of mine. I love you sm. <3
I mean you always laugh and have snide remarks to say about me yet I still, to this day, have nothing against you or anything bad to say about you. You seem like someone who has a great circle of individuals who will always be there for you and I am thankful that you survived because I will never forget when we met when we said how excited we were about Legacy Survivor several years ago only for you to get eliminated early but we were both sad about the outcome. I always remember you as a funny dude in the nicest ways. Just let go of some past negativity on people who aren't causing you trouble. Hope you're okay!
You’re loved though. I mean existentially yeah a lot of this doesn’t mean too much but... idk you impact people positively daily. Those interactions mean something.
The amount of people you have touched and impacted on this website alone shows how needed and appreciated you are in this world. You are beloved in this community, with so many loving you and your hosting abilities. You believed in me and I believe wholeheartedly that you are here and alive for a reason.
Idk you that well man but every life is valuable I hope you see that with what's going on in the world today and wish you the best .... I'm really sorry that happened to you and I hope you have support irl but just looking at the comments here I think you def have support on this website and to piggy back off what the other people commented I think you have made an impact on this site so that's something to be proud
That's painful to read as somebody who really looks up to you. I was in HS watching your stars games when you had multiple wins in a year and thought you were a legend. Not to mention all the games that you have hosted and experiences you have given other people, myself included. You've allowed so many people an escape from situations you didn't even know, and created so many positive experiences with the effort you put into your games. You're a great guy! Truly one of the more genuine people on this website. You deserve to be happy :)
As made extremely evident by the comments, there are countless people here who truly care about you and enjoy your company. From a personal standpoint, I know we've tended to fight with one another within the context of a game because, at it's core, I believe we're two incredibly competitive and dedicated players of the Survivor format. It genuinely upsets me that we haven't had many opportunities outside these games to actually start talking and really getting to know one another. You've stuck out to me since I first joined this site, and I do feel like we'd mesh better together outside of a game.
In any case, there's endless value to your life. Whether you are aware of it or not, people here are extremely impressed with your work and dedication, and many of these peoples are commenting above me expressing how deeply they do care about you and how much value you've brought to their lives. Even still, your life continues bringing value and spreads happiness to so many people. So don't give up. Times are tough but I know you can hang in there and make the best of things.
I hope reading through these comments helps you develop a change of heart. If it doesn't, I'm always here to listen and talk when I have a spare moment. This community would be lost without you, and the people here are happy to have you around. You are loved. You are important. You have value.
That sounds like a terrible thing to go through! I am sorry you had to experience that, but glad you survived. Your life has value.
Life works in mysterious ways. You may feel right now that not much is happening in your world, but things can change in an instant. Maybe you are meant to achieve something brilliant when you're 60?
Julian you are among the few people on this site who always radiate an aura of warmth, always so welcoming just tries to be kind. Some of your comments in our Pokemon chat would make me laugh and I was really bummed out you weren’t able to take part fully in our nuzlocke because life was happening.
I know we haven’t spoken in a while and haven’t really chatted daily like that but I think you underestimate how much you bring to others. Maybe bring a fraction of the joy you bring to other people to yourself. Practice liking yourself, it’s hard and uncomfortable but like any other skill, it gets better with time. Stay strong, I hope these comments are a reminder of that and whenever you feel this way please come back to read these
And one month ago I played your org and had a fun time and meet new people all because you decided to host it. All because that day YOU SURVIVED.
It is hard sometimes to realize the impact you make on people, and you can find yourself thinking you made no impact at all, but because you survived you have continued to bring happiness in peoples life even if it was through something as small and trivial as an org.
Remember that.