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  1. GLO VS JARRETT
  2. Trinity Survivor NB - 18th Place
  3. Trinity Survivor NB - Tribal Council #4 (Sanma)
  4. Trinity Survivor NB - Challenge #4
  5. Trinity Survivor NB - Tribe Swap
  6. Trinity Survivor NB - 19th Place
  7. Trinity Survivor NB - Tribal Council #3 (Torba)
  8. Trinity Survivor NB - Challenge #3
  9. Trinity Survivor NB - 20th Place
  10. Trinity Survivor NB - Tribal Council #2 (Panema)
  11. Trinity Survivor NB - Challenge #2
  12. Trinity Survivor NB - 21st Place
  13. Trinity Survivor NB - Tribal Council #1 (Torba)
  14. Trinity Survivor NB - Challenge #1
  15. TRINITY SURVIVOR NB - INTRO + TRIBE DIVISION
  16. TRINITY SURVIVOR NB - MEET SEANY
  17. TRINITY SURVIVOR NB - MEET LOGAN
  18. TRINITY SURVIVOR NB - MEET LEE
  19. TRINITY SURVIVOR NB - MEET PIETRO
  20. TRINITY SURVIVOR NB - MEET JARRETT
  21. TRINITY SURVIVOR NB - MEET CONNOR
  22. TRINITY SURVIVOR NB - MEET JAY
  23. TRINITY SURVIVOR NB - MEET MADI
  24. TRINITY SURVIVOR NB - MEET BEN
  25. TRINITY SURVIVOR NB - MEET MAYNOR
  26. TRINITY SURVIVOR NB - MEET TIMMY
  27. TRINITY SURVIVOR NB - MEET BRIEN
  28. TRINITY SURVIVOR NB - MEET DANI
  29. TRINITY SURVIVOR NB - MEET GLO
  30. TRINITY SURVIVOR NB - MEET PAUL
  31. TRINITY SURVIVOR NB - MEET MADISON
  32. TRINITY SURVIVOR NB - MEET SEAN
  33. TRINITY SURVIVOR NB - MEET DARCY
  34. TRINITY SURVIVOR NB - MEET NOLAN
  35. TRINITY SURVIVOR NB - MEET KEATON
  36. TRINITY SURVIVOR NB - MEET JJ
  37. TRINITY SURVIVOR - NEW BEGINNINGS
  38. I'm a very slept on gifter tbh
  39. Trinity Survivor Retrospective + Big Announcement
  40. How TG/YT Survivor Saved Me

I've been doing a lot of reflecting lately

1stMay 22, 2018 by TheSexiestDude990
(Sorry in advance, I need to put these thoughts somewhere...)

I've spent most of my life (since I was maybe 8 or 9) just wanting it to be over already. Truth be told, I've never really understood WHY I've felt this way. I've brought a lot of these feelings onto TG in my almost 9 years on this site, and some of yall have really helped me through.

After losing a dear friend not long ago (love you Matt64) I started to see things a bit differently. Maybe my life is worth more than I thought initially? Idk. If not to myself, maybe to someone else. Who knows what the future holds, but rn I'd like to be around for it, even though I don't feel that way 100% of the time. I'm working on that.

Comments

love you, talk to me if you ever feel down like that
Sent by BluJay112,May 22, 2018
TheSexiestDude990 you are a great person and one of the people I will always say is my friend on this site no matter what we go through. A lot of people look up to you on here. Your life is definitely worth something, even just the little things we do in our lives to make other people smile and to help other people who are less fortunate than us. If we were not here to make that happen the world would not go round. You are a lovely guy Julian, never forget that and also you've enriched my Tengaged experience since I joined. Mine and a lot of others.

Think about the people around you, what you want to achieve and who you want to prove you have got what it takes to become something and be successful. & I am certain you have got what it takes, I have seen you on vlogs  you seem awesome - hmu in mails if you ever want to chat.
Sent by LoveLife,May 22, 2018
☺️ You mean something to a lot of people. Don't forget that
Sent by BrainJak,May 22, 2018
Everyone's life is worth something (whether you believe that yourself or not), it just takes us a while to find our niche and purpose for being here in the first place so we have motivation to get up in the morning.  I know you'll find yours sooner or later!
Sent by SurvivorFan37,May 22, 2018
Glad you're seeing things differently after a long time, it always gets better bud so be patient with yourself. Other than that, much respect goes to you for having the guts to admit it
Sent by sihz,May 22, 2018
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Sent by Absol,May 22, 2018
glad your perspective is getting better mate, hope you know all your friends appreciate you and no one would ever wanna see you go out like that
Sent by BengalBoy,May 23, 2018
you know i love you julian <3
Sent by NJKoda1998,May 23, 2018
Love you Julian!
Sent by M_Davis1998,May 23, 2018
You know I'm around for anything, even if you don't wanna say whats going on to me you can hit me up and we can talk music or games or whatever, something to make you relax. I'm hrere fr whatever love ya Julian <3
Sent by rodrigueseve,May 23, 2018
honestly Julian i've always thought highly of you but i have even more respect to you for opening up about this! I know we dont talk much nowadays but i have some really fond memories of afinity frat times with you and loved talking with you all in that skype chat every day (we need a new frat chat!) but despite this i hope you feel you can come to me and chat about these things whenever :) lots of love xxx
Sent by Oliviaxoxo,May 23, 2018
<3
Sent by Tommeh208,May 23, 2018
you get out of life what you put into it. if you don't put energy or passion into anything in life you will be miserable.  that's how i see life
Sent by Steel,May 23, 2018

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