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  1. Julian's Survivor Kyushu F5 Immunity
  2. Saga
  3. Kumamoto
  4. Fukuoka
  5. 2 years ago today I got married
  6. Why Josh Martinez is a BB legend
  7. How To Nominate In Stars
  8. 9 Year TG Anniversary
  9. A behind the scenes look at Stars 512
  10. I hate everything about myself
  11. Survivor Wannabes - Jury Questioning
  12. Survivor Wannabes - Episode 15 Recap + Tribal
  13. Survivor Wannabes - Episode 14 Recap + Tribal
  14. Oh I didn't make the TRS cast rip
  15. Survivor Wannabes - 6th Place
  16. Survivor Wannabes - Tribal #13 (Anoteri)
  17. Survivor Wannabes - Episode 13 Challenge
  18. Survivor Wannabes - 7th Place
  19. Survivor Wannabes - Episode 12 Recap + Tribal
  20. Bitter juries don't exist
  21. Vaitupu
  22. Nui
  23. Survivor Wannabes - 8th Place
  24. Survivor Wannabes - Episode 11 Recap + Tribal #11
  25. Is it acceptable
  26. In case this wasn't already said before
  27. 馃専 Thank you so much 54.9% 馃専
  28. Survivor Wannabes - 9th Place
  29. Survivor Wannabes - Tribal #10 (Anoteri)
  30. Survivor Wannabes - Episode 10 Recap
  31. I've been doing a lot of reflecting lately
  32. Survivor Wannabes - 10th Place
  33. Survivor Wannabes - Episode 9 Recap + Tribal
  34. Survivor Wannabes - 11th Place
  35. Survivor Wannabes - Tribal #8 (Anoteri)
  36. Survivor Wannabes - Episode 8 Recap
  37. Survivor Wannabes - 12th Place
  38. OH MY GOD YALL
  39. Survivor Wannabes - Tribal #7 (Anoteri)
  40. Survivor Wannabes - Episode 7 Recap

I've been doing a lot of reflecting lately

1stMay 22, 2018 by TheSexiestDude990
(Sorry in advance, I need to put these thoughts somewhere...)

I've spent most of my life (since I was maybe 8 or 9) just wanting it to be over already. Truth be told, I've never really understood WHY I've felt this way. I've brought a lot of these feelings onto TG in my almost 9 years on this site, and some of yall have really helped me through.

After losing a dear friend not long ago (love you Matt64) I started to see things a bit differently. Maybe my life is worth more than I thought initially? Idk. If not to myself, maybe to someone else. Who knows what the future holds, but rn I'd like to be around for it, even though I don't feel that way 100% of the time. I'm working on that.

Comments

love you, talk to me if you ever feel down like that
Sent by BluJay112,May 22, 2018
TheSexiestDude990 you are a great person and one of the people I will always say is my friend on this site no matter what we go through. A lot of people look up to you on here. Your life is definitely worth something, even just the little things we do in our lives to make other people smile and to help other people who are less fortunate than us. If we were not here to make that happen the world would not go round. You are a lovely guy Julian, never forget that and also you've enriched my Tengaged experience since I joined. Mine and a lot of others.

Think about the people around you, what you want to achieve and who you want to prove you have got what it takes to become something and be successful. & I am certain you have got what it takes, I have seen you on vlogs  you seem awesome - hmu in mails if you ever want to chat.
Sent by LoveLife,May 22, 2018
鈽猴笍 You mean something to a lot of people. Don't forget that
Sent by BrainJak,May 22, 2018
Everyone's life is worth something (whether you believe that yourself or not), it just takes us a while to find our niche and purpose for being here in the first place so we have motivation to get up in the morning.  I know you'll find yours sooner or later!
Sent by SurvivorFan37,May 22, 2018
Glad you're seeing things differently after a long time, it always gets better bud so be patient with yourself. Other than that, much respect goes to you for having the guts to admit it
Sent by sihz,May 22, 2018
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Sent by Absol,May 22, 2018
glad your perspective is getting better mate, hope you know all your friends appreciate you and no one would ever wanna see you go out like that
Sent by BengalBoy,May 23, 2018
you know i love you julian <3
Sent by NJKoda1998,May 23, 2018
Love you Julian!
Sent by M_Davis1998,May 23, 2018
You know I'm around for anything, even if you don't wanna say whats going on to me you can hit me up and we can talk music or games or whatever, something to make you relax. I'm hrere fr whatever love ya Julian <3
Sent by rodrigueseve,May 23, 2018
honestly Julian i've always thought highly of you but i have even more respect to you for opening up about this! I know we dont talk much nowadays but i have some really fond memories of afinity frat times with you and loved talking with you all in that skype chat every day (we need a new frat chat!) but despite this i hope you feel you can come to me and chat about these things whenever :) lots of love xxx
Sent by Oliviaxoxo,May 23, 2018
<3
Sent by Tommeh208,May 23, 2018
you get out of life what you put into it. if you don't put energy or passion into anything in life you will be miserable.  that's how i see life
Sent by Steel,May 23, 2018

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