Matt64 was one of the first people to introduce me to group games to this site. This was during a time when I've never even played/seen survivor before so he was one of the first few people to really help explain to me the dynamics of the game. Which was why when he mentioned that he was going to host his own Survivor Org, I was so excited to play. And though I shed a lot of tears and anger in that game (towards the end) I don't regret it.
What I do regret, however, is seeing the signs that something was not right with Matt. What I do regret is seeing and hearing him talking about doing and using drugs and alcohol and deciding to remain quiet instead of trying to have a serious talk with him or get into contact with someone who could help him. What I do regret is knowing that something was wrong with a friend I had known for like two years, and yet stupidly deciding to keep my mouth shut. Because this is surely just a phase, right?
Matt, I just want to say one thing to you before I go to bed tonight. I'm sorry I let you down. #wearblackformatt