And I kinda feel pathetic blogging about my issues all the time but it’s kinda therapeutic in a way. Or makes me feel like I can just say whatever.
But I’m just exhausted and it’s been a very long and bad day and I just feel so isolated from people and it’s killing me. And then I do go out, try to do something excited or out of the norm, and I get two creepers coming in to ruin that; one following me around a store and the other literally taking a picture of me. And just an IRL friend lying to me and making excuses as to why she doesn’t reach out.
I just am so dead exhausted and feel like everything is setting me up for failure.
That’s it. I just needed to vent. I don’t really want to talk, not that I don’t want to but I’m too depressed to respond rn
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I understand nothing I say will make you feel better, but 90% of these things in the last year or two have happened to me from feeling excluded, or not loved, or used, or like a burden, exhausted, not good enough or whatever it may be. All I can tell you, confidently, is that you are a really strong person and you’re built to bend, but you will not break, I promise. One day, in the future, you will look back and say “I made it.” I mean that. And it will feel so good. You’re not broken and you’re not a burden, you’re loved. You’re needed. You’re important! I don’t even know you, but knowing how this feels and knowing you feel this way makes me sad. I’m so sorry you feel this way and I just want you to know it’ll get better in time.
And never feel pathetic for feeling how you feel, like seriously. You’re allowed to feel pain, hurt, misery, discontent. Just don’t allow it to consume and overtake you. You are so much more than your bad days. You’re worth it. <3
omg I’m so sorry to hear what u going through, I’m glad you’re talking about it and just know those weirdos are creeps who have no lives. So sorry about that :(
