Hi Jury.
I know a lot of you are not happy to see me here, as I did have a part to play with a lot of your demises, and for some of you, I genuinely feel bad for that but I do feel like without those moves, I would not have made it here.
-----PRE-JURY-----
I honestly played a completely different game than I envisioned myself playing, my plan was to play easy, play between both sides and do that until jury or as long as I could. I quickly figured out that, that was not a feasible option as Jake made an alliance excluding me in the first week (I would be added in week 3) and the opposing side made an alliance without me. I then was nominated in week two by Craig which really took me by surprise, as I thought we were good but it made me step up a gear and stop playing passively. I lost two of my best friends on the website in week 2 & 3 (albeit Macken and i did not speak for years), with Eddie, another close ally falling afterwards. I really was at the bottom but I managed to flip things. The only way I knew to work my way up was by making bonds and breaking them. I helped expose the alliance that dominated the early part of the game, I coerced Eddie into not vetoing Jake and ruined Jake's last minute pleas and made bonds with people such as Zach, Layla and Nicky, all of which played a huge part in me getting where I am today.
-----JURY-----
I feel the easiest way to describe my post-jury game, is by talking about each week one by one, and addressing the evictee one by one, as I know the majority, if not all of you, will not read this all.
Kevin, I honestly felt bad evicting you, as I know you were one of the people who campaigned for me to stay both times. I really did not play a huge part in you going, as I did like you, but Layla, had performed better in competitions and I knew her better. That week was spent on me trying to stay safe, as Vincent was a wildcard to me. Of the people on the jury, despite me evicting you, I would say you're one of the people who I played the lowest part in evicting.
Daniel, I did not expect to nominate you. Was part of it emotion? Absolutely, I was pissed off at something that was out of your control and I didn't give you the chance to speak. I don't think I will get your vote tonight. But I do think that had I not struck here, that I probably am not in the position that I am now, especially because Cameron was my potential re-nomination. But yes, while I do feel like I majorly fucked you over, and I feel bad on a personal level, I do have to own that it was best for my game.
David, we never seen eye to eye at all. You were someone who I knew would never work with me and I do feel like you always had it out for me despite my best efforts to smooth things over with you, but perhaps, you saw through my shady antics as you definitely would have been the renom had you not won the veto for 10th and Craig/Nicky had. I did try and push the target on to you, as I knew you could see through me. I don't have anything personal against you, it was all game and I do apologise for letting my emotions get the best of me and being a cunt to you.
Zach, I should not have lied to you. Stupid on my part, I was not home and I did not think. I think when I said it I meant it, but when speaking to Nicky more, I learned that it would get the house more on my side if I evicted you. I do feel bad as I did lie and betray you, and having you in, would probably have meant that I didn't let Craig get so close to winning this season. But I do feel like you probably beat me in the end after winning like everything. You really did nothing wrong to me, I just voted you to stay good and integrated with the house, which did help me survive in a unanimous vote the following week, so again, I felt bad on a personal level but it did help me in this game.
Newz, I really was bamboozled to see you be backdoored, and it definitely was too early, we definitely had a close-ish bond that got severed slightly after my double eviction antics. I can't say I played any part in your eviction, apart from me campaigning to stay. I always wondered if you were holding back, so maybe it was good, you got slayed where you were, but yeah, i still am a bit hazy on the reason that you went home so I can't comment a lot on that.
Nicky, we had such a weird relationship in this game, where we had and didn't have each other's backs at the same time and you definitely were someone who helped me make the end. I did not want you to go this week but, you had to once veto was used. I knew you and Craig in the game was an unstoppable force so I had to pitch for you to be broken up that week. Again, someone who I felt bad for on a personal level but a necessary move that had to be made.
Vincent, I mean, I know you were frustrated because you honestly made some good points but once the rumours spread of you wanting to get me and Layla out for 4th and 5th, and how wild you had played the whole game, I knew you had to be cut. For me, I knew I could beat Cameron in competitions and he was more stable, so I had to campaign for you to go to Layla because you were a volatile player who I don't think had my best interests at heart. I know that hurt you, but having you gone made it an easier path for me to get to the end.
Layla, diva. Honestly, I was kinda ready to cut you when you campaigned for me to go for 14th but we kept getting seen as a duo and i do stan you so we made it work. You were a great ally who would have whooped my ass here, so it was definitely a blessing in disguise you left, as I definitely was the more hated of our duoship. But yeah, ily.
Craig, in a season called Rivals, we were the Rivals of the Season. You made this a great back and forth season but I think you knew what was going to happen if I won. I had wanted you out since like 10th and you just would not get evicted. I definitely could not do what you did and I respect you for it.
All in all, I acknowledge that at times, I was overly emotional and brash. I let my emotions get the best of me but I also didn't put enough care into other people's emotions. I will say had I not played the way I did, I definitely would not be here. I feel bad from an emotional standpoint for some of you, but not from a gameplay standpoint. I did not play a perfect game, but I played the one most fitting for me to make it here.
If you have any questions, please ask!