Lexie R. (deathlyavocado) [Bunch of confessionals]:
Merge/Logan Boot
So yay! Merge! I was proud to make it to this point because honestly as long as I could be on the jury I’d be happy, yaknow? Like going into this season I didn’t really have high hopes and just figured that if I could make merge, that’d be a success in my book.
Anyways, so this vote was fucking INSANE.
So initially we were all like okay yeah lets vote Qaz bc Tyler just brought it up and yaknow like its an easy vote, he probably wasn’t ever gonna really wanna work with us, yada yada. That is nowhere fucking NEAR what happened in the end LMAO.
So Noah wins immunity, and we were all like yay one of our alliance won immunity! Nice! But I guess the immunity went to Noah’s head?? And he just flipped????? And wanted to vote Tyler???? So this plan WOULD have gone off without a hitch - they kept it fucking QUIETTTT. BUT, thank FUCK, my relationship with Brandon came in fucking CLUTCH and we call for a whopping 5 minutes and 40 seconds in which he tells me like everyone was fucking lying to us, they were all voting Tyler, and we would all just be throwing our fucking votes on Qaz. And this was THIRTY. FUCKING. MINUTES. BEFORE. THE. VOTE. THIRTY MINUTES. I had never fucking wanted to die MORE BECAUSE OF A VOTE.
So I go into fucking SCRAMBLE mode bc I knew if Tyler went it would be a fucking HUGE blow to my game. So I IMMEDIATELY call Tyler and he’s like that’s not true Brandon’s probably just exaggerating/trying to get in our heads and I like obviously couldn’t tell him Brandon wouldn’t lie to me so I was like o like idk I feel like we should trust it idk if its worth the risk just TRYING to get him to fucking believe me. So Tyler goes to Qaz and straight up asks him if people are writing his name down. Luckily Qaz just fucking tells him yes (for reasons??? Not sure why he actually did), so now Tyler is like holy shit we have to figure something out!! And I was like yes bitch ive been tryna tell you for like over 10 mins now!! And he was like Im gonna message Noah and I was like do NOTTTTT!!!! HE WILL CHANGE IT UP!!! So now Tyler and I are just trying to figure out who we can go to to save him.
So at this point Tyler and I had talked to Brandon and Nikki about doing Logan. We originally weren’t gonna go through with it bc we wanted to go Qaz more, but we were like ok we just gotta do fucking Logan at this point we know we have two votes behind that lets just do it. So we knew we could get Austyn on board, and at that point we just needed one more. On the call, Brandon thought that we could get will on board, but Tyler added KC to the chat about going for Logan. I was STRESSED because I really thought that KC was super loyal to Noah, but KC FLIPPED!! AND DID NOAH!! I was literally SO stressed in KC’s pms just trying my best to justify why he should save Tyler and it WORKED!!!!!!
So after all of that fucking INSANITY, we got enough votes for Logan to go home. He goes 6-5, and everyone (specifically Tyler and I) released a big ole sigh of relief.
(Retelling this story was fucking traumatic bc that was honestly the most stressed ive felt like EVER)
Noah/Qaz Double Boot
Noah side of things:
So going into this, Brandon and I were really considering doing a 2-2-1 vote on Will, with our 2 votes on Will, 2 votes on Noah, and then Noah’s vote on Brandon. We decided not to because we were worried that Will would play an idol, but god do I fucking wish that we went forward with it. Brandon was worried bc he knew Noah would write his name, and he was worried that if will played an idol Noah would play his (as we assumed he had the merge idol since he was the only one w a clue), so Brandon figured it was better to go for just Noah instead of Will.
I was a little disappointed, as I really did wanna go will, but I figured that since I was immune and Brandon was the one at risk, I’d just go along with what he preferred. Even after really trying to push us going for Will, it just wasn’t meant to be :/
Also to Noah: you were an insane motherfucker. the way you played was absolutely BONKERS but yaknow what I respect it… kinda. You did a lot that didn’t make sense but at least you felt valid about it? I do understand why you wanted to try something while immune the round before but like…. Bruh.
Also during this vote it was super stressful bc like my shit irl has been really stressing me lately and it caused me to have like visual auras which can apparently happen when youre stressed and I was like holy shit im seeing flashes (they weren’t really like flashes like how the internet described them but I was convinced once I fucking googled shit) and I was like welp im going blind via fucking retinal detachment!! And like I had an eye appointment the next day so I was like I can just wait but when I called the eye doctor to give them my eye insurance I also mentioned the flashes and was like is it fine if I just come in tomorrow for it or is this like a big problem and the nice lady was like we can make room for u at 5!! So I go in and everything fine thank GOD but like my eyes get super dilated so they can look in my balls which was a whole problem for the challenge bc it hurt to look at the computer screen. But also this was a huge fucking problem bc Brandon and I were going back and forth on who to go for and we hadn’t really decided by the time I left. We had an hour and a half before the votes were due, but tmobile has been having huge problems w their data working or whatever so my fucking phone wasnt sending ANYTHING!!! AND I WAS SO STRESSED I WOULDNT GET HOME IN TIME TO SEND THE VOTE IN!!!!!! It was a whole fucking mess but luckily I got home before 6:30 and could send my fucking vote in.
Qaz side of things:
So w the Qaz vote it seemed p straightforward. Tyler Austyn and KC stuck together to vote Qaz out, which was expected, but Nikki still voted w Qaz bc they were close from being on their og tribe together. Not too exciting, but rip Qaz nonetheless!
KC Boot
So this vote was an absolute HEARTBREAKER. TRAGEDY. But also probably the biggest move I’ve ever attempted in a game??? So like. Here’s the whole story:
So going into this, I was like ok well I want to go will so fucking badly but I knew Brandon would want me to go for someone in my alliance of austyn/KC/Tyler. And that was the case. He was like “we gotta take out one of Tylers pawns” and like I was like yeah that makes sense hes a big threat but internally was like fuckfuckfuck like these are the only ppl I have besides Brandon and like at this point that was a lot of people but also like FUCK LMAO I didn’t want to see one of them go!! So like I was like ok we gotta come up w a GAMEPLAN YALL. Im kinda proud that I formulated this bc I really snapped (but also had so much fucking ANXIETY bc like holy shit id never really tried anything this big that was my idea and like what if it went wrong!! (Spoiler, it did)).
Ok so this plan I keep eluding to: How it worked was that the four of me/austyn/kc/Tyler would put our votes on will. In order to make him feel secure, we had KC go to LQ and Will and say that he was trying to make a move against me so that they would think we were cracked. We knew that once Brandon and Nikki heard about it, they would for sure come to me about it immediately and then they’d want to go for KC. This solved my problem about not wanting to target one of my allies out of the blue, gave Brandon and Nikki a reason to believe I’d do it, and also have some way to split Will/LQ and Brandon/Nikki’s votes, as that was the only way our 4 votes would be able to get Will out. Tl;dr: It would be 4-2-2 with 4 og Sayan on Will, 2 on KC from Brandon/Nikki, 2 on me from LQ/Will.
The biggest concern about this plan was that we were banking on the other 4 splitting their votes, which was super unlikely. And in the end didn’t happen. I think it was a bit of bad planning to expect them NOT to vote together, but at least we had some form of plan going into this. And honestly, I just felt like creating chaos in this vote would be good because hopefully will just wouldn’t think that he was being targeted at all because we thought we were being super quiet about it.
Unfortunately, ofc Will plays a goddamn idol, and the other 4 all voted together on KC. It was fucking tragic. The question I had leaving this was: how the fuck did Will think he was getting votes? Because like, to us he was saying stuff like o people are being quiet I feel like something is happening, but while he said that to all three of Austyn/KC/Tyler, they were all actively talking!! Like I was so worried that Austyn leaked to will to just tell him to play the idol, which may have ended up being the case in the end :/