Dono | Confessional, Day 16, Hmong
It's a nice feeling being safe tonight.
I'm used to living in constant regret. It's just some things I can't seem to shake with time. I'm a person that holds on to things I suppose. Sentiment is important to me. So when I made the decision to play the idol, and then almost backpedaled on it with you, I opened a path I should have followed. I didn't, and I can't help but feel a bit of remorse. But life throws these lessons at you all the time. I've learned that it's almost never a bad thing to fail, or to be wrong, so long as you are honest with yourself. Reflection is the most important step in growth. So with that being said, I must move on and not look back. The idol was a fun tool, I got almost nothing out of it, and that's the way it goes. I'm still in a fair position to win, and I've got the advantage of being a challenge threat. There are only two left, and I know that no matter what happens tonight, we are getting rid of a challenge threat. If it's Logan, cool. If it's Brian, even cooler. And if it is Ryan? Well, even though it seems like worst case scenario, I still don't see how I survive Final Five without immunity, even if Ryan survives this tribal. The twosome of Ryan and myself succeeds when I cannot be targeted. So it is a better situation for me to have immunity than Ryan, or at least that's how the dice have been rolling.
I suppose it would be nice to go to the final two with Ryan, but realistically, he has played a fantastic social game. He has played at least an equal part in communicating with our enemies. I have also never been so social in any tengaged group game as much as I have in Thailand, so I still think I could beat him in the end. Honestly, I don't care who I go up against in the end. I'm desperate enough to just get there at this point, and I stand a chance against anyone left in the cast. I think I'd have the toughest time beating Ryan, so I won't be too upset to see him on the jury.
Tonight, I believe the vote will either be Ryan or Logan. I don't think there are any idols left (probably wrong but fuck it), so it will hopefully be straightforward from here on out. Brian has been vocal in pitching a Ryan, Brian, Dono Final Three. I don't buy it. I called him out last tribal with sending Chris home, so he is probably out for blood. I suspect Logan will vote with him once again. I hope that by voting out Chris, we didn't forcibly align Logan and Brian, but that's seeming likely. I have no belief that Richard wants to work with me, but I really think Andrew might. I really like Andrew, and I think he could definitely vote with us tonight to take out Brian or Logan. Neither Richard or Andrew stand to benefit from eliminating Ryan. From my perspective, Ryan and I have been kind and in more cases than them, honest. I can't possibly know the relationship they share with Logan/Brian except through voting history, but there is no consistency in that either. Andrew seems really barely there and Richard does too. But they have brains and do there own thing, it's quite strange. They are just... quiet. I'd love a Richard/Andrew/Dono F3, oh man that is ideal.
I don't really know how to talk about my game. I don't want to start thinking about it, but the whole finale is in one freaking night, so i don't have much time between now and my opening statement, assuming I make it there. I am not convinced I will, but I had no clue this game would go the way its gone thus far. I have ZERO votes against, that is a huge surprise. I thought I'd be getting votes left and right. Most times I think I just got lucky or was feared to have an idol, so maybe that idol did some good after all.
So I'm going to bed, and I'll be sending some more confessionals (and my tribal council vote) throughout the next two days, because I have to keep my head in the game. It's sweet that tomorrow is the real Survivor finale, so my head is gonna be in it come Thursday.
LET'S GOOoOoOoOoOoOoOoOoOoOoOoO