Okay I'm going to clear some things up for you all, because it's quite irritating to see people make judgements about me without knowing all the facts.
1. Until AJ's outburst, I had -no- idea what a "Brovivor" was. This is something that sprung up while I was away from Tengaged (from April to July) and was total news to me. Yes, I was friends with two of them before the game, Ben and Rhys. But Idek Newz, Ryan, etc. I still don't know who "Cory" is that Leli said I would apparently automatically align with in a game.
2. There is a very specific reason I would never betray Rhys in a game. It actually ties into when I went away from the site. But before that, we were a duo in this game. We made decisions TOGETHER, and respected each other as equals. I'm not the flashy one, and I don't get the credit, I get that and I am prepared for that. But it disappoints me, that Leli who had all the information and all the credits, never bothered to correct the misconceptions in this VL. You're entitled to your opinions, but not wrong facts.
The reason Rhys is my best friend on here, along with 2 other people (Me2013 and Number1SurvivorFan) is because I was very close to them, and had a personal tragedy in April. April the 2nd to be specific (ring any bells as to a correlating date in this game), where I lost my best friend. He passed away. All three of those people, Rhys to be more relevant to this discussion were there for me as an amazing support. They didn't have to be, it's an online site, an online friendship and an online space. They could have said "I'm sorry," and left it at that. But they didn't, they listened (metaphorically) when I needed to, and the people in my real life couldn't because they were too overwhelmed. And for that I'm forever grateful and would never, ever dream of betraying them in a game, that is worth almost nothing if you win and should be for fun.
That leads to
3. Why I asked Rhys to vote me out. When I realised, at the final 4, that it was the beginning of September, and that the 2nd was approaching, and reflecting on the stuff I had done to Ben, who I'd also grown quite close to, I decided that I needed to make it right with him. And I did, which he was angry about, and ultimately we have moved past it. That's when he tied the votes. I then thought about it, and I was a total wreck that day because of my real life, unrelated to this game. And I realised I was never going to be in a fit state to fight for my game, and fight for the win, like the jury and other finalists deserved. On that day of the month, my whole life shuts down. I can't go to university, I can't do my assignments, I can barely see anyone. It's still that painful at this point in time. So you can imagine, there's no chance I could properly fight for a "win" in an online game. I told Rhys that I needed him to vote me out, because I wasn't ready. And he fought me on it, he didn't want to. And all I had to say was "it's the 2nd of the month" and he knew. That's what kind of friend he is.
So yes, you're entitled to your opinions, and those who said "I pissed you off with my decision" or "you lost respect for me as a player," feel free to hold those opinions still. But at least now it's more an informed opinion. I'm not saying I expected you to know, but I just want this to be something for all of us to consider (myself included, I know I've been guilty of saying stuff like this in a VL in the past), just remember we don't know what is going on in the life of the people behind those avatars. Yes we come together to play these games and give it our all, and we all do that. And really everyone in this cast from 1st to 18th (except 1 person) did that. I respect every one of those people for giving everything to the game. But we really never know what personal stuff are driving people's decisions in the game. For me, any other time of the month, and I wouldn't ha
