Chastain:
ok I hope by swing, you ment had a impact. I knew that I had to make sure that Patrick was evicted because last time, he was saved to be people's shield and he can go against other physical threats, but at the final 9 that was the time where you had to think of the end game and if he was near that point, he would have easily won his way to the end so even if I had to pull the "i heard patrick's name" to have people vote him, I needed that to happen which spared Lequisha. So, I think one was the Tico vote. After the whole coop d'état thing which had you and Tico on the block together. I knew that Eli would want you out for being the bigger threat, but I did not have any trust in Tico as he seemed to be the one playing multiple sides. I knew that I needed people to go for tico, especially when Lequisha wasn't around to vote and she gave herself a penalty which never came to play. Then there was the Mari vote which I did myself with my one vote. And at the final 3, I had my final 2 deals with both you and Lequisha so that if I didn't win HOH which was the intention, I would at least had someone that wanted to take me. I'm actually surprised that I wasn't busted for making deals.
I'm actually glad that you brought up Link's Survivor because I took that game into account when working with you. I knew that you saw me as a big threat in that game so I intentally had to down play a bit at times so that you weren't try to go against me again. I remember you saying that one of the reasons you went against me was becauase I never told you about my hidden immunity idol until I played it and you felt that you lost a little bit of trust in me. So I took that into account and after buying the "Vote Nulifier" prize from the shop the day it was closing, I told you about it I think the next day so that you would still have that trust in me in this game. Also, you the only person I revealed this prize too. No one else knew about it, even Lequisha did not know about it. Mostly because I never use it as it was never needed. I always felt that if you are just gonna use a twist, just for the sake of using a twist and not to advance your own game then you're not doing it right.
And I guess this is the time on the site where I should talk about myself as you claim to not know me personally. I am a 22 year old guy that has lived in Canada all my life. I have said that I found it tough to talk to people at times, because when I was very young, I was diagnosed with Autism which made it very difficult for me to talk and be close to people throughout my life. Even currently, I find things tough in the social aspect as when I do get close to someone, I end up driving them away unintentally. outside of jokes of having a girlfriend that I never had, whenever I talk about my life, it was true and sincere. I'm not one to lie about my personal life. I don't talk too much about me being autistic because I don't want to judged or just be known as "That autistic guy", I want people to know me about my personality and not for my disorder. Whenever I do tell people that I have autism, they stop talking to me like a actual person, they talk to me like im a stupid child and eventually they do not want to be around me anymore. So I let people in my life know me first before I ever feel life I want to reveal it. Though that does not seem to be the case here.
And about why I want to win this game: I have been on this site since around the spring of 2011, and since then this has been my escape from the real world when life took a real toll on me. I would have my fun when I play group games like survivor or the reality RSF/TTRS/NB Reality Series. I only played in one Suitman reality game so I couldn't include it. The last time I won something was in May 1st, 2013, the day that I won Chantras Survivor Tokelau. and since then, it was 5 years of never making a final, usually getting eliminated for tough circumstances, leaving very early or in the middle, rarely near the end and usually being told that im weak and not good enough. The one time I truly made finals was RSF Gauntlet 2 and that was 2 years ago which I did not win. Can`t really count BestHero`s Survivor where I was the only one that gave a shit in that game, or the Suitman Big brother Trial game where that was just something to get someone in a survivor game.
When 2018 came, I wanted to show that im can hold my own on this site despite Tengaged having gone through some serious changes. So every game, I would give my all physically and mentally. Half of the time was a forth place finish, and other times it was a miserable finish which would set my confidence down at times. So I finally decide to play in a Big Brother game where I would play Day be Day and plan my way through and decide what was best for me. My motto that I would tell myself everyday in this game was to Never Give Up. The moment that you doubt yourself is when people will get you out and you lose again. That is why it was very important for me to play so that I make the final 2 and win. Because after this game, I don`t know if I will ever make the finals on this site again. This is the clostest I have come in a very long time and I am happy for it. I want this win for my own reasons so that I can prove to myself that im not terrible or weak or worthless.
As a old tengager, as a fan of Big Brother, as someone that is playing not to prove to others, but to myself, I just think that it would be great for me to have this win to show to struggles on this site and in real life can have success in this day in age.
But that's just me, i'm not a juror. Yall are. and it's up to you to decide how you want to vote. I can only try to convince you if I am worthy. Weather or not you were convinced, it's up to you. Thank you for your time.