Hi everyone. Im quite surprised by all the responses and i really do appreciate you all. I been going through it the past few weeks. Unfortunately on March 4, 2020 my father passed away due to complications of his chemo treatment. I hope I can help someone by my story. I miss him every much but I have to be strong at this moment but everything is extremely complicated.
So my father has had cancer for the past year. Hes been going through to chemo to help reduce the swollen in his stomach cuz he has a tumor. N for him to be operable they needed the swollen down. My father was in his last treatment stages which was very exciting for the family and him. That day he was feeling very sick and he eventually was coughing up a lot of blood. They rushed him to the hospital and later on he had a respiratory attack cuz of all the blood in his throat. They induced him and placed a breathing tube on him so he can breathe. That's when I got the call he was in intensive care.
My father ended up having 3 heart attacks and one of those gave him a stroke which paralyzed half his body. They brought him back every time. And this point he was suffering and was unconscious and weren't able to see any activity in his brain. We had no clue how much damage the stroke had cause to his brain and that last thing we wanted was him to have more pain. My poor dad was suffering and we had to let him go. I miss him so much. I didn't get a chance to say goodbye which breaks me every time. I think this is why it's so hard for me to let him go cuz I dont think I have started my grieving process nor I dont know how.
Mind you guys this is all happening in Mexico and I'm in the process of getting my passport since it has expired. I'm still in florida atm. I'm actually packing as I'm write this but that's a different story for another blog. Unfortunately I did miss the funeral and the cremation of my father. But I will eventually travel n see my family in Mexico.
I miss you dad. Much love. I'm proud I have grown and learned from you. And in some ways I am like my father and I even named after him. I cherish all the dreams I have of him and part of my wants me to continue dreaming. I just want to make my father proud.
Thank you all for reaching out to me. I love u all.
