I promise not to make promises I can't keep
And I promise to ask for help the next time I can't sleep
And I promise you that anxiousness won't kill my dreams
And neither will the bitter sting of defeat.
I don't wanna wake up another night
drenched in cold sweats
my best friend nearly lost his fight
ever since his overdose
our relationship ain't been the same
he can't look me in the eyes
does he even still know my name?
I promise not to let a college decision steal my passion
And I promise to learn to leave my anger in the past tense
And I promise to try and not dwell on all that's happened.
I don't wanna be another statistic
they say I am working too hard
I just wanna make sure my dreams go ballistic
poverty has her hands on me
no wonder some people don't get it
it is crazy to people
that I am working for more than a profit
I am working to fix my family tree
so poverty can get the hell off it
so that possibly
my kids never wake up to no Christmas tree
or hear parents fighting over finances
it feels like it is all up to me.
I promise to learn to rest and when to breathe
And I promise to get over the fact that mom decided to leave
And I promise that as I grow older
I won't grow colder.
I just get tired some times
seeing my mom's reflection in the mirror
Erica,
I don't want to be you
but every day in myself I still see you
and I have to wonder why checking up on me
is such a chore
my damn anger reenacts domestic wars
the day you stabbed dad in the stomach
damn
it just gets to me
I didn't notice it all in childhood naivety.
I promise not to make promises I can't keep
And I promise to ask for help the next time I can't sleep
And I promise you that anxiousness won't kill my dreams
And neither will the bitter sting of defeat.
