the *right place* to post this but... for obvious reasons I can't put it on Facebook and I don't particularly feel like sharing this with my friends.
I am currently really disappointed at myself and my substance use this weekend. It was my birthday weekend and because I've been trying to party less/be responsible I didn't go out the past two weekends.
Anyway, I'm disappointed because I took so much of...everything that it was actually dangerous, stupid and in excessive idiotic quantity.
Also, I took today off work weeks ago because it was supposed to be a *recovery* day but I had leftover -redacted- and finished it this afternoon and spent hours cruising Grindr and hooking up with guys.
It just feels like I've really lost the plot in the past 6 mos or so and though I had a good birthday weekend, it was an extreme one, which is a cause for concern.
I know no one cares I just had to get it out. Don't do drugs.
Admitting this is the first step. It’s possible you may need help with your recovery, and I wish you the best of luck with this. There’s always a way to win - addiction is a beast but you can beat it 💙
Tbh you’re able to admit the problem and talk about it on this post which means you’re self aware, you definitely can take the steps to make changes tbh. Good luck and good for you!!
