Hi. I'm Jack. I'm 17, British, Male and Homosexual. For most men that are straight, who say they don't have a problem with Gays, genially do. But not in a nasty way. They just feel we attention seek to much or other opinions. But being Gay really Is a big life changer. This is my story.
In Year 7, I had a best friend called Danny. we were like brothers. We slept each others houses, and went out every night/weekend, like I said, like brothers. One night, we was in bed (nothing slutty I promise) and we kissed. We looked into each others eyes, and kissed. I Knew then I was Gay. I felt disgusted and ashamed. and when I went home the next morning I felt filthy and like I had a big secret. The thoughts ran through my head from Year 7 to Year 9, was I gay? Wasn't I? phase? But in year 9 I got a girlfriend, Lauren, she was sweet and she was a lovely girl. Loved Doctor Who, and so did I. Then we kissed, and I knew for a fact I was gay and ended the relationship a few days after. We still stayed Friends. In Year 10, I knew I had to come out. Everyone was growing up, and I started to make Homosexual friends and I kept asking them about how they did it, I had a friend called Ryan, he looked like Barbie. He was the first boy in my school to come out Gay. He was so brave. I started to tell my friends eventually until people started hearing about it, One boy found out off his girlfriend and joked about it 'If you don't come out before your birthday im going to tell everybody'
The holiday in February I was haunted. What would everyone say? I Had loads of male friends. We was a big group of lads. it was unreal how close all the lads where. 16th February 2011. I told my friend how scared I was coming back to school, so she said 'Don't be scared of what people will say, it's who you are Jack, No one will say anything' so that night I came home and logged onto Facebook and admitted I was homosexual.. That's where everything changed.
Going back to school all my male friends went awkward with me, wouldn't sit next to me, change next to me, hardly spoke. It was awful. The 'Crews' would walk past me and call me horrible names. Fag, Batty Boy, the lot. It was terrible. At times I went home and cried, and im a manly dude, but I cried for months over being gay. I Hated it, it felt like a disease.
My friends got worried about me, but then I started to talk to other gays on Facebook and I wasn't the only one who went through stuff like this. I felt comfortable, and started getting more confident, and then one day one of the lads from a 'crew' called me a fag, and I said 'And what?' and he went pale, didn't have a comeback. Put his head down and walked away. I felt so strong, everyone's dirty looks and namecalling stopped. it was great.
I left school a year ago, i'm the happiest I've ever been. My dad doesn't really speak to me, and my fathers side hate me, but I don't care. I am who I am, I am gay. Get over it?
It's not an issue, where still people underneath.
Through all the trouble, bullying, tears, arguments whatever! I now know coming out was the strongest, bravest and best thing ive ever done in my life. Everyone respects me for it, and I'm proud to say I, Jack Southward, Am a gay man.
Carlisle he got kicked out of school in Year 9, and we drifted at the end of year 7. it was kinda strange and it's awkward when I bum into him In the town centre, strange. Lol, but thank you for reading :-)
yeah I know wicky copied it and pasted it. the funny thing is that I JUST actually wrote a blog today about how people should be judged by their character and not by their sexual orientation JackSouthward
It's not only cool lol it's true :) And yeah I did really write about it in my blog today because of like these stupid jerks that made silly comments when I was having lunch with some friends.
I think ya know everyone should give everyone else the benefit of the doubt at first ya know and not be so quick to judge or write someone off because of silly things like for example, gender, race, sexual orientation, and so on. Life is too short. Let's all try to get along or at least learn to respect and acknowledge one another :) JackSouthward
