Ashanti (KingGeek) Confessional EP:2
i'm back... for the 8th time! honestly, i'd like to start off by saying that i am beyond humiliated that i willingly submitted an application and will likely lose once more. it's degrading to ME but ben knows that i love him and this series so i guess embarrassing myself like this will be worth it. now i'm not gonna lie, i saw majority of this cast and a big ol' question mark appeared on my head because literally WHO ARE THESE PEOPLE? that being said, there ARE people that i am familiar with to some extent. i've played with tyler and ben recently (and they voted me out in our respective games, and just so happen to me on the same tribe as me! won't he do it!), i'm somewhat aware of people like arek, nathan, washed, kai and sam simply because they're people i've seen on the site but never really held conversations with. then there's brad, we used to be TIGHT like in 2016 but i eventually fell off the face of the earth sometime between that idk. nonetheless, i love brad, that's my baby! i was excited to see him because i knew right then and there that'd be somebody i could work with and consider my #1 in the event we end up on the same tribe together. we might be doing ourselves a disservice by interacting so much despite being on opposite tribes, but i don't really care, he's someone with a personality in a cast of people.. who don't have much personality!
one thing that concerns me about the brad thing though is that he also suggested we work with nathan, which i'm FINE with but i'm also unsure of how tight the two of them are and am in no way comfy with being a third wheel or whatever. i just realized i spent the last few sentences talking about someone not even on my tribe so let's segue to matsuzaki! they're all nice! i think washed is very funny and i've got along well with him. i kinda suggested to him that we should work together, and he seemed to be game for it which i love to hear. david is a sweetheart and i adore our conversations together! he suggested that we work together, to which i obviously accepted. ben and i have talked WAY more than we have in like any game ever, so something could culminate there? nathan is another one who i've really enjoyed talking to and i kinda wanted to nudge the idea of working together in order to start setting things into place when he/i/brad hopefully swap or merge together, but i didn't wanna be too forward! thomas is nowhere to be found. someone should probably find him.
then there's kai and tyler. tyler, before anything, immediately apologized for what happened in our last game since he betrayed me and got me voted off for 7th.. which resulted in him getting 6th as i predicted, because i'm a very intuitive spirit. of course i don't really care, and he was a good ally then, so i'm willing to take the chance to put my eggs in his basket and see where it gets me, and honestly it's taken me places. i've learned a lot about kai specifically from tyler, who seems to be playing really hard, which has rubbed tyler the wrong way. kai formed an alliance with him, nathan, and washed and tried to suggest voting out ben? apparently he was pushing for it hard and it happened to fall on deaf ears with the group, though he was gonna try and proposition doing that to ME and actually told his alliance he was doing so, as if they cared. anyways, nathan and tyler have talked about how the regime kai is trying to build for himself is a bit ridiculous and off-putting, so i don't have any worries. nathan also told him that he sees washed and ben as a duo, and i was like :o oh wow! it wasn't a groundbreaking revelation by any means and i don't think it'll play into this vote one bit, but it is something to consider in the future.
the beating around the bush in terms of the vote this round, as we lost the second immunity (did i forget to mention i singlehandedly embarrassed the ot in the first one), and i kinda wasn't here for it. like HELLO it's obvious who should be going, why be scared to n