Dinara – Unique
(This is the REAL Dinara’s life journey that she wrote in her website)
One of the most popular questions I got asked is: “Where are you from?” which is, when I simply answer: “Russia” and people would stare at me simply and blurt out point blank - “but you are Asian” or sometimes they would very gently whisper to me the same thing because someone from Russia usually has a blond hair/blue eyed.
Growing up in Russia in my home town of Tynda in a middle of nowhere I stood out. There were not many people looking like me, so my outsides didn’t match up. In the kindergarten I was told that I am not allowed to play with the toys, because those were for Russian kids only and I was not one of them. One of the sentiments that I have heard most was “Go home!” which was so confusing to me, because in my mind, this was home already, I was born and raised there so where would they suggest I was supposed to be going? One thing was clear that I didn’t belong and so within me, it started that unconscious search for Home.
But NYC changed everything for me. It became home, the one I didn’t even know I was looking for. New York brought me absolute freedom. Here I could finally walk down the street without the need to hold my breath every time I pass by big group of people, the was no need to tense up or keep on looking over my shoulder. I could be whatever I wanted to be, no one cared and I loved it. In this great city my outside and my inside finally matched up.
I love this place so much and people who make it what it is. So if you are reading this, it is my appeal to you - be kind. Change good or bad it always starts small and it always starts within. So at this challenging time and in light of recent events, now is the time to recognize that acceptance, humanism, tolerance, kindness it all starts with us, so let’s allow ourselves and each other find a place, where we would belong and be who we are, free.
So now in my photoshoot I wanted to embrace that “Asian” beauty, that everyone in Russia wanted to trash talk about me and bullying me, which shown by my asian face structural and that brown eye and black hair which most Russian girl doesn’t have. I give more Asian touchy by posing with that little flower (idk if it is sakura or something cause it seems familiar). Here no one would bullying me again for my look and I want people out there who seems like they didn’t belong to a place because of their physical need to be brave and it is okay to be “unique” like what Dr. Seuss said “Why fit in when you were born to stand out” Keep that in your mind
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