Yung:
There are three things that I would change if I could start over. The first is I wish I would’ve fought harder to get Joel to stick around because I feel that him quitting ultimately made us drift a part a bit and I would have been curious to see how things played out if our chat of three was able to continue further in secret. The second thing I would’ve changed is I would not have made an alliance chat of myself/Will/James/Warren during my first HOH. The reason I did so was I was considering nominating James and Warren and felt they were really holding back with me so I wanted to do something to make them feel they could trust me. Afterwards, something still felt off with them so I regretted making the chat and felt I could’ve gone about trying to get them to open up to me more some other way or realize they were still shady without the chat as it ended up hurting me in the end. This is an example of me doing too much which is a good Segway into my third and most important thing I would change. I’m a perfectionist by nature and so I always want everything to go smoothly, always know what’s going on, and have control over my destiny which can sometimes be classified as me being rude or condescending like Nicky described. I wish I would have been able to overcome that in this game and not feel like I had to be so many people’s number one ally to feel secure. My main objective was to go unnominated and so I was constantly feeling like I had to give people reassurance or check in to ensure my safety which made them really trust me. In the end, I couldn’t keep up with the fact that I had 6 final 2’s which was far too many and really ended up hurting a lot of those strong relationships in the end as I backstabbed so many people. If I could do it all again, I would stick with one solid group and then battle it out from there rather than trying to have my hand on all sides of the house at all times. I don’t have to play what I considered to be the “perfect” game. Sure, I may not have gone unnominated or always voted in majority, but in the end that would have saved some of my jury relationships by playing a more loyal game which seems to have been my ultimate setback in this game.
1) Zach R
2) Will
3) Josh
4) Kim
5) Vanessa
6) Yung
7) Nicky
8) Austin
9) Warren
Zach R – He was my original final 2 and provided me with so much critical information early on such as yours and Vanessa’s relationship, the alliance chat of you, him, Vanessa, and Kim as well as when others seemed to doubt me or brought my name up in any way. We pretty much would have daily gossip chats of all the game info we found out for the day. Others who I initially felt really strong with such as you, Kim, and Vanessa withheld this information from me even though you were aware of it as well. He was the only person I trusted enough to reveal that I was tight with Josh. Without his help, I would definitely not be sitting here because I would not have realized how low I was placed in our alliance and could have easily been picked off due to ignorance. In the end, I realized how crucial he was to my game and if I ended up sitting in the final 2 with him, he could have bulldozed me since my relationship with him is ultimately what led to my strong positioning early on.
Will – Early on Will and I did not really talk much we just had a mutual understanding that we weren’t coming after each other and he expressed to me that even though we weren’t close outside of the game, he had arguably the strongest pre-game relationship with me. Knowing this, I used the pre-jury time to develop stronger relationships with others knowing I would always be able to fall back on him later. I knew Will was amazing at competitions and so as jury came along I really shifted my focus and wanted to feel protected by him as he won more comps while at the same time knowing that my original alliance of Zach R/Yung/Vanessa/Kim would be coming after him. Regardless of who got power, I was in a position where I was not either side’s target. I used the opportunity to make a final 4 alliance of the strongest comp players myself/Will/Zach R/Kim that I did fully intend to carry me all the way while they were at odds with each other until I realized that all three of them would have a greater chance of beating me in the end. What really bonded me to Will in the late game was when we compared notes on Kim and realized that Kim’s ability to make us feel “special” was happening to the both of us. He referred to us in the same flirtatious manner, called us the same things, and it really made me realize that I maybe am not so special in Kim’s eyes and allowed us to see that we had to band together to get Kim out to benefit ourselves. In addition, we were both skeptical of Princessa and did not know who he would choose between us if given the opportunity which allowed me to further solidify a strong relationship with Will so that if he was the one with final HOH I felt secure that I could still make it to the final 2. Our relationship was so strong that I was able to win final 4 veto the only time I was nominated because he gave me the answer as well as him throwing part 1 of final HOH to me when I may not have even advanced to part 3 without him doing so. While Zach R really protected me from a social standpoint, Will protected me from a physical (comp) standpoint and he too is another reason I went unnommed so far.
Josh – As I mentioned in my opening statement, Josh was my greatest pre-game relationship and we were determined to keep it a secret to benefit the both of us. With him naturally gravitating more towards those I did not intend to work with long term, it made him the target of my alliance. With my strong connections on both sides of the house, I was able to prevent him from being evicted for a very long time knowing that if he were to ever get power or have to vote when I was on the block, I would be safe in his eyes guaranteed while the others would not. Realizing I could very well be on the bottom of my original alliance, with Josh and Will still in the game, they were always bigger targets than me which allowed me to fade into the background as they tried to get each other out. Josh also provided me with critical information such as revealing that Zach R witnessed the jury was extremely favorable towards Will’s game which ultimately led me to make the decision to cut Will at the final 3 which would have likely not happened if I wasn’t made aware. He did not win as many competitions to protect me nor had as strong of social connections with those remaining in the end game which is ultimately why he is placed at 3rd and not higher even though I trusted him the most of everyone.
Kim – I had what I thought was a very similar relationship with Kim that I had with Zach R. We bonded a lot over being accountants and we had similar senses of humor so our personal connection developed very quickly. However, I quickly began to realize that Kim either had equal or greater relationships with both Zach R and Will and was withholding information from me that Zach R was presenting to me which ultimately is why Kim is not higher than Josh on this list. In comparing notes with Will on how Kim spoke to each of us like mentioned in Will’s description, it made it very hard to read where Kim’s true intentions lied despite his assurance. Honestly, after evicting Zach R I threw the HOH hoping Kim would win so that he would be ineligible for final 4 HOH giving the opportunity for Will and I to take him out. What I didn’t anticipate, was that I would be able to mend the relationship with Kim and prevent him from nominating me despite Princessa or jury members trying to influence him to nominate Will and I. With Zach R gone, I was starting to realize that I might actually be Kim’s #1 at that point until it seemed Will also felt that way in which case I could no longer considering saving Kim over Princessa for fear that I would be reliant on final HOH in order to make it to final 2. It seemed that Kim was doing the same as me trying to ensure Will would take him to final 2 if he won the comp which is exactly what I was doing and became threatening to me. Don’t get me wrong, I definitely had a solid relationship with Kim but over time it became more and more evident and risky to take him all the way as I was not as sure of his end game plan despite what he told me compared to the others remaining in the game. He also seemed closer with everyone from our original alliance than I was. He was able to win competitions which ultimately protected me and allowed me to maintain my unnommed status to 4th instead of 5th so he ultimately did have protection over me like Will & Zach R, just not us much trust was there on my end.
Vanessa – I felt really solid in my relationship with Vanessa the entire game. Despite what Nicky had told me to try to create tension between us, when we addressed it I still felt super solid. What it really came down to is the fact that both you and her did not win any competitions so there wasn’t that added layer of protection that I was able to receive with everyone listed higher. There was always a little bit of hesitation with me because I knew you guys were dating and had that alliance of four chat that I wasn’t told about but I did think she would be willing to align with me towards the end to take some of the big comp threats out that weren’t me. Unfortunately, I wanted to move forward with people that could protect myself so I could continue to remain unnommed which seemed to be the complete opposite of the approach she wanted to take. I felt I was capable of taking bigger comp threats out myself later on since I had strong relationships with all of them and could win a competition myself to do so if needed. Banding together with you guys would have been very risky and I would’ve worried that we wouldn’t be able to pull it off since the others seemed to dominate the comps and it would completely ruin my position I worked towards at that point. I placed Vanessa higher than you because I did feel a stronger bond with her especially early on when we were in a good position with both sides of the house, specifically Austin and Nicky. Her strong relationship with them helped me to be in their good graces which may not have happened without her influence. I knew she was willing to make big moves as I wanted to do myself so I really wanted to be able to maintain that relationship with her as I wasn’t as positive with where you stood as we continued to move forward.
Yung – I really wish that Joel had stuck around because I feel like we would’ve grown closer over time. Instead, it seemed we slowly drifted a part a bit after Joel quit. It ended up being concerning for me that I didn’t have a specific final 2 with you when I did with everyone else listed above you. You let me know yours was actually with Kim which makes sense as I was feeling like Kim had other options besides me. I’ve been trying to remember but I THINK when Zach R told me about the alliance chat you had he mentioned that it was started by you. Knowing that we had our chat with Joel as well that put up a red flag for me but I didn’t have any specific information that you would be gunning for me or anything so it was not an extreme concern. Like Vanessa, I had to place you lowest among my main allies simply for the fact that I wasn’t able to be protected by you since you did not win power. You never gave me a reason to doubt you, but unfortunately, I made the decision to align myself in a smaller group of those that were the best in comps to protect myself further and I didn’t want to risk if you were just holding back in comps or wouldn’t be able to win any if we continued to move forward together. I placed you below Vanessa because I felt I had a stronger personal bond with her that was able to be translated to a game relationship as well in addition to having more doubts about you if it is correct that you were the one that started the four person alliance chat that excluded me.
Nicky – I’ve played games before with Nicky awhile ago and I know he is very good at making everyone like and trust him so it didn’t surprise me that the same was happening here. In talking with others it seemed they felt as solid about him as I did so it made me question our game relationship. I didn’t want people like Kim, Will, or Zach R to want to keep him around and it end up biting me in the ass later on. It ended up being confirmed to me that he was campaigning for Vanessa and I to be nominated together and he did inform me that Vanessa told him about stuff I said about Dylan. This did make me question Vanessa but I thought we had a good relationship so I brought it to her attention and she seemed very honest and genuine in her response so I brushed it under the rug, moved on, and used it as an opportunity to bring Vanessa and I closer together showing her that Nicky was campaigning for her and I to be nominated if he stayed in the game. I feel this really helped to solidify her vote against him, but I think she was leaning that way before anything was said in the first place. Since he did give me information that helped Vanessa and I to squash any tension and become closer allies as we were being targeted together, he is placed above Austin and Warren who did not give me any kind of information.
Austin – I felt I had a really strong personal relationship with him in the beginning. However, when it was brought to my attention that he had revealed the alliance chat we were in together, that he made, it put up a huge red flag. From that point forward I definitely had my guard up with him and kept the majority of conversations strictly on the personal level and did not disclose much further game info. After I evicted two of his biggest allies in Dylan and Nicky, I knew there was high probability if he got HOH he would nominate me. I attempted to try to alleviate any concerns by helping him in a few vetoes, some of which he ended up winning. I wasn’t really given any inside game information that helped me in any way from him like Nicky did which is why he is below Nicky. However, we did at least talk unlike Warren and I do think he felt solid with for a period of time.
Warren – I really did not talk much game with Warren. Maybe twice, and it was only briefly after I won HOH which became super sketch. I knew he wasn’t very active to begin with but I needed to have a strong personal relationship for that to translate to game and he did not seem interested in doing so. I was highly considering nominating him instead of Princessa my first HOH but Joel had talked me out of doing so. Despite me making that chat with him/James/Will that I mentioned above was something I regret. I didn’t really talk in it much because I realized that wasn’t who I felt the most solid with besides Will. Warren and James still came off super shady despite me extending the olive branch. I had the weakest relationship with Warren of everyone, pre-jury included, and I do not feel he contributed to my game on a social or physical level. The only benefit with him is that he did not complete the Do or Die challenge because I was not very confident in my scores.