As I walk around inside our little house, I saw a “reflected me” in our square-like mirror. It was strange…yes it was! Unlike the ordinary reflection that is seen by the people, I saw a guy full of questions. Not just a physical one that can be answered through looking into our outside aura but also on the deeper side of the reflection.
I undressed myself and look into the mirror again. I ask the “reflected him” – Who I am? Is this what I want? Why do I always fail… yes… why do I always fail.
I looked into his eyes. I saw his stressful works through those eyes. “I want to get rid of it! I hate it!” The words came out of my head. I realized that it’s true. I have no time for myself. I have no time with everything I want just to share and sacrifice my time for them, the time that just wasted by others. Am I stupid? His “reflected eyes” answered me, “You are not stupid! You just don’t have enough time for yourself. Do what you want! Nobody cares…It’s just you…yourself.” Clock ticks. I am who I am.
I looked into his body – his chest and his paunch. He is weak. He is very weak… physically and emotionally. He never wanted to be hungry. He eats food but not a healthy one…that makes him weak. He never wanted to be hungry in the love and understanding by the people around. He never wanted to be alone; he never wanted to be rejected or to be fooled…to down him and stab him in his back. He is weak for he is stubborn. Refrigerator vibrates. Foods are ready inside.
I look into his hips down to his feet. He can’t stand alone. His legs are hairy. There are many of them. It is annoying. He is with his companies. It is not annoying. He is happy that they are there for him. Tramping their feet everywhere together, that makes him happier. He can’t do anything without them for he is a person who wants help in everything. Footsteps are heard. Someone is coming.
I dressed myself again and look at him. The mouth says, “Strive harder!” I am shocked with what happened. The “reflected one” didn’t say those words…for it was I.
