So I've been thinking for a while about this, and I've made a decision that I'm going to log out of Tengaged tomorrow night.
I've been having a really rough year so far, and I need to shift my priorities a bit more towards school and hanging with the friends that I have left.
I'll still be on tonight and tomorrow if you want to pm me. My Skype is open to all those who have it. (I'm not really gonna put it here.)
At the end of fastings, it's like a tradition to write tributes about all the players, and that's what I'm going to do next.
I think next I'm going to say a few thanks to the 5 most influential people on this site these past years/ last words kinda things. Please don't be offended if I don't mention you- just comment whatever you want I'll probably just mail you my thoughts about you (if we've ever met/talked)
NUMBER 1 Stunzer : I have about a thousand things I want to say. They all start and finish with “I'm sorry.” I miss you like hell and if I could go back to grade 8 (omg 13 y.o.) and undo every single little thing that ever pissed you off, you bet as hell I would. But I should really stop making my comment to you about that and more about this: You are the most influential person that shaped my “tengaged journey” (wow that sounds cheesy). Basically, I joined this website to play your group games, and to have fun with you. Everything else that happened isn't nearly as important, or as memorable, as that. I'm not leaving Tengaged only because we're fighting, and I can't play your group games: that's a part of it, but not all. I've never met a person quite like you on this site. Good luck with your “tengaged journey”, I hope you do all the things that I won't (ie. Become a TV Star, play in Stars more than once, etc.) Byeeeeeeee
NUMBER 2 Lemjam6 : With me through thick and thin, you have always been the close(ish) second to Justin. I met you because I loved Yang incredibly. She's not on the show, which sucks, but hey~ If wonderful things lasted forever, they'd cease to be wonderful. My heart is with your frat, or whatever frat you happen to be in. “Jackson: Since when do they bribe residents? Cristina: They don't, unless you're me. A god.” Thank you so much, for the 1000th time, for putting me into Stars. It was an incredible game that I won't ever forget, and I am extremely grateful. It's sad about the 16th, but I just felt so humbled with it all lol. Have a wonder life omfg I probs gonna miss you like super a lot (I sound high like that vlog) Thanks for being a friend when I needed one.
SPECIAL SHOUT OUT TO EVERYONE WHO SUPPORTED ME DURING STARS OMG ILYSM (you know who you are ;) )
NUMBER 3 JazzyDemon : OMG you are my literal greatest competition idk what I'm trying to say here, but your super intelligence made me push myself farther and farther into the game. I had a hella lot of fun playing Justin's games with you. #EverybodyKillVick lmao maybe I overreacted to that a smidge. Thanks for being there to have a decent conversation with me, and sorry for all the things I said when I was (incredibly) jealous of your group game skill. Have fun with tengaged and your life lol.
NUMBER 4 TheJoe : LOL I don't know what it was that happened between us, but it was really fun playing my first (and only) frooks with you!!! #MrsRobinson was a swag Skype group. But actually ilysm cause you're super cool, and you have my kik so kik me when you can lol. Sorry I don't have more to say about you, but I look forward to talking to you more :)
NUMBER 5 ShazamMcAmazing : Stars Buddy omg. You were pretty tight with me when we played. We were both counters, but I kinda put that game behind me now. I'm glad you did better than I did, and sorry if anyone gave you heck for blogging/giving your opinion. We haven't talked since that Stars, but I still like super remember you, and you have my Skype, so feel free to use it!!! Hope you get to play Stars again soon, and that you work your way up to becoming a TV Star.
Me in response to the frat president for #MrsRobinsonAlliance on the topic of leaving
I'm a freaking blue level. I will never get the chance to do that (stars) again, or at least in years. And if I'm not ever going to represent my frat again in the house, the LEAST I can do is stay with them. The second I joined your frat, I knew something was wrong. The Yang frat is where my heart lies. If you want to throw me around and make me do things that I don't really want to, then go for it- but watch out, one day I might not listen. That frat is more than a little picture of Cristina (our lord and savior) in the corner of our avi. It's belonging to something. Something that I understand, and something that I am passionate about. It's a little piece of her whenever I'm on tengaged. That is where I am. That is where I chose to be. Even something stupid like changing frats is taking a piece off of me. A piece of me that I am trying to get back. It almost ruined my friendship with a wonderful person I've known for a while. I've known you for the best of a day. Maybe two. Don't ask anything of me. If you think this is overreacting, that I'm being to rude about this, than you don't deserve me when I'm happy- I'm standing up for what I believe is right.
I seriously did not want this to happen ShazamMcAmazing ~ we had a great thing going as the noob friends of stars, and you are one of the few people in this cast I know the best, and like as a friend.
I could say a lot of nasty things, and then you could counter with a lot more nasty things, and hey! who doesn't like drama?
I don't when it wrecks friendships :(
My heart isn't going to be broken when I lose, but it is when you start throwing shade for no reason.
I appreciate every single person who holds support my way.
I'm sorry if you took the premade comment to heart, but I just wanted to tell you that you should have other priorities other than just bashing the skulls of the premees.
I am the noob of the house. I just want to know that I tried the hardest and did the best I could, just like the Cristina Yang of Grey's Anatomy that my frat supports, and I represent.
I can understand that me being in stars ~ well there are going to be some people in the house who won't like that. They paid to get in, they are TV stars. I'm just a lucky noob. A lot of my comments in the house get stuff like -4 or whatever, cool if you don't want me in the house, please just tell it to my face.
I have been a counter since day 1, they were too scared to “rock the boat” and nom people other than me and Shazam. They have their reasons.
Even though it is my first game, it's also my first game well spent.
But all good things come to an end. If you choose to save me, you aren't going to be put into a raffle for a gift or anything like that~ what you get is knowing that you literally made my day. Every single comment that says “Saved vickstertheninja, or Saved Reiyah, or Saved Victoria, or Saved Yang” makes my day. Your support makes me feel incredible, that people care.
You see the person I am going up against has the opportunity to join again sometime in the near future, but I won't get that chance. This is my one shot at something incredible~ I have promised myself and others that I wouldn't waste it, and that I would use it to the fullest extent. I have learned so much, and I haven't wasted it.
GL to Shazam , who is going up against me, I know your battle was probably hard too, and I'm sorry the house hates you too ~ may the people of tengaged love you a touch more than me.
At first, I told the president of my frat that I wasn't ready for this, and that it would be too hard for me. He really wanted to put me in~ even though I felt somewhat (okay a lot) unprepared, it was actually an incredible move. He taught me to take great leaps of faith, don't look down, and even if you fall, your freefall to the bottom will be exhilarating.
Please keep me in the house people of Tengaged. It would mean a whole stinking lot to me. If this is how far I can get giving it my all, then this is how far I am going to get.
