so referring to my last blog, I said how I keep seeing his face on tinder, bumble, etc and like it really bothers me to the point of crying. I'm not a weak ass bitch at all but when it comes to this story I get uneasy... I was a little thrown off from the negs, I feel like people think I'm doing this for attention, or some shit like that, like no, this happened to me 2 fucking years ago and it's still fucking haunting me so this is my story!
When I was in grade 12, so 2 years ago, I met this guy off meetme or something like that, and he was 21 I believe, his name was Andrew (idgaf about him so here's his name) and we talked a bit, he seemed decent, so he asked to hang out so I was like sure! So he came to pick me up when I was on spare, it was a free class, it was perfect because it was my last "class" of the day so after we hung out I could just go home. So I'm 17, and still a virgin right (almost 20 and still am fam) so I was expecting just like a hangout no sex obviously cause' we didn't discuss that. So right off the bat I kinda got creepy vibes from him. Should've went with my gut but I just whatever. So we go to Tim Hortons and instead of going through the drive through or anything, he goes WAY at the other end of the parking lot where's this like empty field and no cars around. My heart was mad racing and I was like nothing gon' happen whatever. LIKE THIS CREEP KEPT HIS SUN GLASSES ON THE WHOLE TIME BTW LIKE RELAX STEVIE WONDER. Anyways, he's very touchy feely trying to kiss me and touching my leg and I was like pls no like i'm not feeling it. Then he decides it's a good idea to whip out his dick and start stroking it????? I immediately looked away and was not having it. THEN HE FUCKING DECIDES TO GRAB MY HAND SO "I CAN JERK IT OFF" I was looking away the whole time, trying not to cry, just trying to get it over with. My friends and family were like why didn't you get out of the car? 1. he was 6'3 and I was extremely intimidated 2. how was I gonna get home
the most disgusting thing was that he was turned on by me saying no, and stop and shit LIKE WHO IN THEIR SICK FUCKING MIND.
anyways, he ended up doing his business, and he dropped me off a street behind my house cause' I told him too and I literally cried all the way home, and asked my sister to pray with me because I was so disgusted in myself.
I didn't realize I was "sexually assaulted" till' I told my parents in October of the same year (it happened in February) and my mom started crying and told me what happened.... to this day I'm still in denial that I was "sexually assaulted" because I don't want to put a label on it, and I don't want to believe something like that happened to me ya know? idk, but yeah I joke about it now, but sometimes like tonight when I saw him on tinder, it bothers me but yeah before this becomes a J.K Rowling novel that's it..
keeps popping up on all dating sites, I hate seeing his god damn face... took me a year to realize what he did to me, I told my parents on thanksgiving lmfao
ps. I joke about it cuz I rather not cry about it & i'm still in denial xo
there's people serving like 5-10 years in jail for smoking weed, while this guy who murdered many people was on a terrorist watch list and was walking and living freely?
over the death of Christina Grimme, I posted a huge fb post how she was one of my favorite female youtube volcalists that inspired me to create a youtube channel. Just listened to some of my favorite covers from 6 years ago and had a good cry. Beautiful voice and soul, my heart is sad for her and her family.
