so referring to my last blog, I said how I keep seeing his face on tinder, bumble, etc and like it really bothers me to the point of crying. I'm not a weak ass bitch at all but when it comes to this story I get uneasy... I was a little thrown off from the negs, I feel like people think I'm doing this for attention, or some shit like that, like no, this happened to me 2 fucking years ago and it's still fucking haunting me so this is my story!
When I was in grade 12, so 2 years ago, I met this guy off meetme or something like that, and he was 21 I believe, his name was Andrew (idgaf about him so here's his name) and we talked a bit, he seemed decent, so he asked to hang out so I was like sure! So he came to pick me up when I was on spare, it was a free class, it was perfect because it was my last "class" of the day so after we hung out I could just go home. So I'm 17, and still a virgin right (almost 20 and still am fam) so I was expecting just like a hangout no sex obviously cause' we didn't discuss that. So right off the bat I kinda got creepy vibes from him. Should've went with my gut but I just whatever. So we go to Tim Hortons and instead of going through the drive through or anything, he goes WAY at the other end of the parking lot where's this like empty field and no cars around. My heart was mad racing and I was like nothing gon' happen whatever. LIKE THIS CREEP KEPT HIS SUN GLASSES ON THE WHOLE TIME BTW LIKE RELAX STEVIE WONDER. Anyways, he's very touchy feely trying to kiss me and touching my leg and I was like pls no like i'm not feeling it. Then he decides it's a good idea to whip out his dick and start stroking it????? I immediately looked away and was not having it. THEN HE FUCKING DECIDES TO GRAB MY HAND SO "I CAN JERK IT OFF" I was looking away the whole time, trying not to cry, just trying to get it over with. My friends and family were like why didn't you get out of the car? 1. he was 6'3 and I was extremely intimidated 2. how was I gonna get home
the most disgusting thing was that he was turned on by me saying no, and stop and shit LIKE WHO IN THEIR SICK FUCKING MIND.
anyways, he ended up doing his business, and he dropped me off a street behind my house cause' I told him too and I literally cried all the way home, and asked my sister to pray with me because I was so disgusted in myself.
I didn't realize I was "sexually assaulted" till' I told my parents in October of the same year (it happened in February) and my mom started crying and told me what happened.... to this day I'm still in denial that I was "sexually assaulted" because I don't want to put a label on it, and I don't want to believe something like that happened to me ya know? idk, but yeah I joke about it now, but sometimes like tonight when I saw him on tinder, it bothers me but yeah before this becomes a J.K Rowling novel that's it..
GrrrImABear because tengaged is full of people who make fun of others who've had horrible things happen to them, whether it's obviously sexual assault, or mass shootings so
I'm honestly glad that you are brave enough to share your story. There are so many in this world that just aren't, myself included, so I seriously admire you.
GrrrImABear I mean it's one thing for me to share my story, but come to terms with what happened is like another thing ya know? But thank you so much < 3 I have so much love for you!! we're in this together love! xo
craycrayaye it's a really shitty feeling, I remember feeling so disgusted with myself??? when I shouldn't have because it wasn't my fault! but yeah you just freeze and you don't know what to do or think of the situation
This is fucked up he would do that. But this is how the world functions sometimes. I'm glad to see you're willing to get yourself out there and get something that's been haunting you off your chest.
Icarus_Mark exactly, its sad that guys feel the right and need to treat girls like this???? Like its okay to make someone extremely uncomfortable for your own pleasure. But thank you so much!
