and am disgusted by my past actions and want to make things right but I don't know how to and it sucks. i am tired of feeling so worthless and disgusting and an awful human being but that's how I will forever be seen. Unwanted by all and seen as the bad guy. I just want it all to end to be honest. I think my days here may be numbered so if there's anyone who wants to hash things out let me know before I go.