this christmas trip to see my family basically has just reconfirmed that my relationship with them isn't healthy and that my dad does nothing but make me feel like shit, he's so good at making my insecurities i thought i dealt with resurface and the worst part is he thinks he fucking gets me, he literally put me in a mental hospital in seventh grade and never visited me once and my mom only talked to me for a long time after the hospital let me out, i fall into a depression last year and he sent me to europe because i know deep down he can't accept that he fucked up raising me and that i am a failure and im basically destined to continue on my path to becomign a drug addict and alcholic who will most likely die at the age of 40 and ill probably contract AIDS to top it off since he believes all gays have it
im in europe too