Earlier today I ran into this woman whom I admire. I took the opportunity to try to sound as smart as possible. In retrospect I just sounded pompous. To myself, probably to her as well. I've realized in introspection since that I'm always trying to impress people by sounding smart, or put people off by being ugly/a troll. It never suffices for me to just be a friend amongst friends. I've always had to be first or worst. It's nothing but out of control pride. I'm so tired of living that way. So, blah, whatever, I just had to get that out so I can go on with the rest of my day.
I'm tired from finals and I'm finishing a stretch of having worked 10 out of eleven days so I'll feel better after the next couple of days off too.
